School of the hardknocks

i graduated from the school of teh hardknocks

KillPride(Mind State)

I believe in Bible not the Reverend,
Coz I don’t know what’s about to happen,
So don’t push me when I hold this weapon,
There’s a fine line between respect and disregard,
Let me perfect my part,
Dear Lord, I’ve been walking since so long,
All this time I ve been alone,
Can’t figure out was I living or existing,
I feel indebted every time I m breathing,
I m tryin 2 find myself,
I open my eyes and few years passed,
Unanswered questions left,
Hoping now Lord answers fast,
But I doubt coz we ain’t talked since long,
And now I m sorry,
I m selfish like every mirror I watch,
Slow at heart, quicker at thought,
All the pain I stuffed inside,
Is bursting out the words are weapons I recite,
Passion I ignite,
But so often in my mind,
I m tired of struggling I hate it,
But I know I will wake up one day and realize I made it,
Why is love a word overrated?
Why is one other four lettered word so overstated?
What does it take us to rise above it,
Why did it take me to leave my country
To realize how much I love it,
I know what you gonna stay
If I love my country why did I leave it
When I say my heart is still there believe it
If my life I chose rather than life that chose me
I m schizophrenic you can’t know me
I rose from the ashes of the dreams u ruined
But theres no feud,
This is not it mind state continued…..

Blood Brotherz

You had the same kind of childhood I did,
Spent most of the time playing cricket on the street,
Shared days and our ways,
Labeled good for nothing but sometimes found praise,
I spent more time with you than my brother,
Yes, we are friends but you know what I take it further,
So its only fair to say you are my blood brother

We shared the same thought,
We have been feuding but our friendship is strong as a rock,
We shared differences coz we all are a lil different,
Few lost way coz we all love our freedom,
Achieved nothing but we are proud as hell,
Many haters came and you can touch and tell,
Yes I am first to leave
But you know I will be the first to give,
We’ll do anything for each other
Coz after all you are my blood brother,

I promise you all I will return for sure,
You know me I keep my word
I want you all to be well settled,
I m cruising hell, still unrattled,
I know real men don’t cry but I m missin you
I know you will die for my name,
Any disrespect to me and you will drive em insane,
And you know I would do the samething too
So there’s none other
But you are my blood brother

Reminisce on the time spent so sweet,
Watched each other grow, Summer and December,
I know you remember
I taught you many things, And vice versa,
I call you once a week say “ nice to hear ya”
I hope to bring back those days n chill again,
Its like we share the same blood line,
I know u feel the pain I m under,
Me and my blood brother

Happy Now II

I have forgiven you but thers nothing you have done,
Time is a teacher, is what they say,
I have turned away but I don’t know what it takes
To let something go away,
I hope you are happy now,
That I don’t follow you around,
That I don’t do those crazy things anymore,
But I m looking back while I m leaving,
Wishing you best but this feeling is unforgiving
Hope you find one you need,
A confidant, a friend indeed,
Life is small I hope you measure it well,
Many other things I did wanna tell,
But not now I hope you know why,
One thing I wanna tell you is be happy always,
Happy with whoever u choose,
Don’t wanna warn you against the evils of the day,
You know the truth what can I say,
With your so called friends I hope u r happy now,
Guilty not for what I have done,
I hope you are happy now,
Wanna say these words but can’t be now,
I m leaving but I will not forget you somehow,
After all this feeding your pride
Are you happy now?

So many...

Never ever had a best friend, Never stayed with anyone to call one so,
Always had friends who left me before I told em to go
Always were around when they needed me,
I was always there but they decided instead,
I know I wasn’t always true,
But I guess I did what I had to do,
Always counted on myself when the time wasn’t right,
They had my back but always alone I fight,
I keep my trust on the one looking from the top,
Obstacles stop me but I will not stop,
Walking alone I do my thing,
I m always open with two arms like swing,
Though I was in love pure,
Only to find out I wasn’t so sure,
Felt like I would get lost in those eyes,
I know I feared God but I always was devil in disguise,
Never won a gold but never settled for a silver either,
I m running a marathon but I can’t take a breather,
Just when you thought I wouldn’t do something like this,
I just throw away my reputation and do something crazy insane,
Always gave y best but I feel like losing without even tryin,
I know that’s what cowards do but I can’t stop cryin,
I know I’ll find my way destiny is in my hands
And there’s not denying

The City is mine

i m a concrete eagle,
flying thru smoke tryin to see things equal,
I tell u what i see thru eyez of mine,
often overlooked the cries of the child,
I tell u the truth, eyez of the wild,
So much diversity tries to divide,
rich and poor, caste and the creed,
i see the house and the hate it breeds,
minds are crazed and sick,
i m often amazed at this,
Just then God raised the heat,
Sweatin, I m tryin to increase my liquid intake,
I ve loved the city since i was in 6th grade,
I love the city still no mistake,
The city lights shinning on my face,
Ahmedabad City is the place,
So hypocritical, Got me irrate,
I got links so I m just throwing my weight,
I m just tryin to know my hate,
I m riding too fast I need to slow my pace,
I need to floss, I need to show my best,
City's moving on, following path of the west,
Few figures coming up, Start the unrest,
As a citizen, my part is put to test,
I feel the city choking every evening,
You can't use dictionary to match every meaning,
The smoke makes hard to even see 6 feet and,
I m just tryin to come to terms with joy of defeating,
Every few months a new kind of greeting,
Broken dreams found wings I m leaving,
But still far away i can feel the city breathing,
Even when its asleep,
Got the youth caught up in the grip,
the vices, keep the city in one piece,
Not asking for more but more than one wish,
City gifted me a style to run with,
And an attitude u wud like too,
There's more to the city than a business and a design school,
I didn't use a ruler for a line I drew,
Parents pushin refusin teens,
lil past notoriety,
Middle class authority,
Money with cooperative tellers,
End up makin 'em high city dwellers,
The City state dry,
Some of the high grade lies,
End of October and something illuminates the sky,
Come January and again its colorful and bright,
city doesn't sleep 9 days a year,
I m talkin aloud there are 9 ways to hear,
trouble fiends suicide,
Get double wings n fly,
to the promised land, Was this planned,
No notice sent,
The retail boom,
My homies send the details soon,
6 weakened teens spend time at 6 silver screens,
And 6 years later 6 livers weak,
Expanding like exponential,
Still below full potential,
Supplying every essential,
Progressing in sections, Demandin attention,
Migrants attraction, Never liked fractions,
Never visited the ashram,
But i got more than art lovers in my arsenal,
I 've got business people and even fanatics,
City is known for more than aesthetics,
From hustle bustle of the old city, where peoples bargaining,
To far west where new youth is waiting,
Many winds have carved the stone,
Charity of many things starts at home,
Same place where hearts have grown,
Same face that the skies have known,
Vacant is where lies the throne,
I've waited for this b4 i was 9,
I claim the city, The City is mine

Youth of my nation

Youth of my nation

I m talking to you

I can fill ur shoes

Any given day I can walk in 2 u,

I know u don’t disgrace ur country

But unknowingly what if u do,

I just wanted to do

All the things I wanted to do,

There are a few things I pointed 2 u,

I m the son of the same soil that anointed u,

I wanted to make it big I was disappointed too,

But I dug deep inside 2 find a way,

To fight the pain,

Like I said,

This is addressed to the youth of the nation,

Let’s identify the truth we are facing,

To and fro, the mood keeps changing,

The best of the talent is lost to an alien,

The rest of the talent blamed for the failing,

Then people like you and me do the detailing,

Before u start a storm look where you sailing,

Think a lil, Youth of my nation

I m just tryin to start a conversation,

We curse and hate the country we are born,

The country we are from,

We move far away and realize where we went wrong,

Gather our regrets and put em in a song,

But don’t worry we are strong,

I just hurried into a thought,

Truth is something we have sought,

Always so let’s just stop,

So can we have a lil moment of clarity?

Can we have a lil parity,

Work towards prosperity,

But its so sad that the,

Youth of my nation

Don’t have any patience

Youth of my nation

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