dont judge me

dont judge the blog on my last post
like you dont judge a book by the cover

So near yet so far

So near yet so far,
So close to my heart,
Yet we shall be apart,
So much love but so much hate,
So unlike yet we relate,
So clear yet so blurry,
Only someone so close can hurt me!
Talk too much but not enough,
Everything I do is not enough,
You can touch me but can't feel me,
I lost you so nearly,
I thought you would know me but if only,
So together yet so lonely,
Miss those things so much what we own,
But only when they are gone,
So near yet so far,
Your name etched on my heart,
But on the broken part,
I know life is hard,
But with you it will be easy,
All you can do is wish me,
You are next to me but not with me,
So did you miss me?
Never thought you would leave so easily,
I know you are gone but in someway you always with me,
The same way as I m with you,
What else can I give you?
Miss you are the words I won't try to misuse,
It was always clear from the start,
So near yet so far*

Personal Jesus

Yes I wake up
stare at the ceiling
I m proud at hell,
I love that feeling,
Everybody around is plotting,
But I m guilty of sinning,
I m ready to testify,
Able and willing,
Dear Lord guide me,
So that I may know against whom I m leaning,
Tell me so that I may know,
When I m really losing myself when I m winning,
This world made me what I m,
My thoughts need a cleaning,
Forgive me for all the times,
I forgot to pray just after evening,
Sorry Lord If I lost my path,
I know better ways I should be leading,
But all this time when I was away,
Devil was the one I was greeting,
I have changed for better,
Help me give this life a meaning,
I have had my share of the tears,
for the times I was grinning,
I guess you only get what you give,
Yes I m not that unseeing,
What I always wanted is
You to be my personal Jesus*