What 2 write!

I don't know what 2 write,
About the flow I recite,
Or what I decide,
About the struggle I've been through,
Or the troubles I sent you,
Honestly, I don't know what to write,
I am emotionally exhausted,
What more I wanted,
Next verse I write when the feelings comeback,
You know how the line goes, Been there done that,

I don't know what 2 write,
All the friends I miss,
Or should it be about the girl I kissed,
Regrets I have, Or the battles I have braved,
Roads are grave, but more I have paved,
Comebacks I have staged,
Or the rapids I have raged,
The demons I have caged,
Or the hate inside me,
I wasn't born with a pen but I m sure to die with,
But guess what? I don't know what 2 write,
Next verse when I decide,
Killpride or 4186 I ride,
The country I represent,
Or the worries I have 2 end,
No words for those who question me,
Coz I have learnt what patience is,
I m writing my life away,
Its gonna be my time oneday,
My words will live on even if I die,
Now that I know what 2 write*

What to write

What 2 write!
thinking................

Talk to me

Sit beside, And talk to me.
I know we are strangers now,
But time will pass and we'll be friends,
Speak your mind, But also speak from your heart,
Talk to me,
Tell me your miseries,
Tell me about your regrets,
I promise I will tell nobody,
You can trust me, I will keep the secret,
I know life is hard But I also know we can start,
I have got my own battles to fight,
But over time I will make your battles mine,
Talk to me.
Talk to me so that I can share your pain,
Who broke your heart, I know how it feels
Coz I ve got a broken one too,
Open up to me, And I will open up to you,
Don't sit alone,
coz I havent found someone I can talk to either,
And I will watch you back When you are asleep,
And I will keep all the promises I give,
Sit beside me,
Talk to me*

Trouble is...

Gratitude is burden,
Revenge is pleasure,
Mayhem is music,
Chaos a delight,
So I hold the gun next to me when i write,
Death is incarnation,
You realise this,
And it was only lie you were making,
When more time you start wasting,
Your heart keeps pacing,
but it was really time you were wasting,
thats was the trouble is.

Never did drugs Never will do,
Rest assured coz I will never leave you,
Rest assured coz you will never be who?
somebody else, whenevery thing seems well,
And everysecond seems hell,
In our mind, the satan he dwells,

Fear the beholder,
Coz you just don't know him,
Mirror in front of you,
isn't as clear as you wish 2,
But again meanings are relative,
What I meant was not what I meant,
So see you when I reach the pinnacle,
Cherish the pain, I say it again,

Like many else I will be nobody
till somebody kills me,
so let me do it my self,
No, Not kill myself
Make my self somebody
But the trouble is...

2 Hell n Back(Hellcruiser for Life Part II)

Momma's boy, Younger but stronger,
You wonder, You ponder,
I came up, You wander,
Seen summers, thru saunas,
Won thunders, Been under,
Not a drummer but on the vocals,
Lost way not focus,
I m a Sagi, been friends with Taurus,
Did what you never thought I would, And repeat,
Tasted success and defeat,
Been through the battles, Many stars learned,
I ride till the wheels fell off,
Hellcruiser, Answered the hell's call,
Had the devil biting dust,
I rose but I was dying first,
I ain't lying much, but I m eying some,
Never afraid to try it, once,
Some still question my ways,
Its like been questioned by the nation I saved,
Far away I went from the place I was raised,
Never in my life that place I disgrace,
Me chillin', reminise on the days,
Never change my mind, guarantee I say,
Calm waters run deep I say,
Call my friends Once a week I may,
Breathe like plants, yes I did my thing,
Leaves yellow in fall, Green in spring,
Black Sheep, Yes, I did my bid,
I went the other side, Grass be green I wished,
But no matter what, its mind over matter,
And those who matter, won't mind,
She loves me, Shes love me lot,
But may be worst she's got,
So alone but I watch these people come,
And I watched these people go,
Am I the culprit or am I the victim,
Forget my pain and the joy that I did bring,
Life often is the same,
Now I ask can you relate?
Its hell before heaven,
Ten before Eleven,
So you gotta cruise hell before you get a piece of the sky,
And this you can't defy,
But for me its hellcruiser for life!!*

What up Ni!

What up Ni How are you?
11 months later Yes I m still thinking of you
I wished I would have been able to meet you before I left,
And you know my friends they are of little but no help,
So howz life goin', How are your so called friends doin',
I m here alone, But you know that I m improvin',
I bet you have made new friends,
Are you arrogant as usual, And you know what then,
Yes, I m missin you,
I wished I would have left you some songs to listen to,
I hope I can call you sometime,
But to be honest, I did try one time,
Can't forget your smiling face,
But I regret all the time I waste,
Can't forget all the time we spent,
I m writing my life away, I hope now you understand,
Me and what my love really meant,
Now its too late I can't come back anyways,
This is my promise that I will return,
To see you and see what you have become,
To see whether you are beautiful than ever,
Which sure You will be, but have you become that for better?
And see if you remember the face?
The face that you drove crazy,
And if you still remember killpride and 4186,
It is difficult for me yes I hate this,
I bet I would have changed then,
I guess I shouldn't say that,
I 've got lot to say may be later now,
Thats it for now, I will go, time is major now,
What up Ni!