What 2 say!

What 2 say!
What to write
Words are so useless,
No help even from a newsflash,
I just keep everything inside,
All you need is insight,
to know a person,
Life is like I m moving the mouseBut not the cursor,
Its a system failure, may be,
So all this coz I m crazy,
Eyes never lie,
And ontop of that they never try,
Can't you read my eyes,
Sun is blocked by the high rise,
You can see only if you want to,
But heart break is something
I have been prone to,
Incognito and unknown too,
Looking back now look what we have grown to,
Do I need to say,
Anything today,
Actions speak louder than words,
No matter how do they come,
Some people are prouder than some,
No I don't believe everything you told me,
I m the wind nothing can hold me,
Till 6 feets fold me,
Calenders change so will we,
May be then I wouldn't speak so freely,
Love is not verbal,
Use of figures of speech is not a hurdle,
But then we will come full circle
Its back to
What to say*

Is gone

when all your love is gone,
what will I do with this life all alone,
Waiting, Hoping that you would come,
So if the ego ever lands make a U-turn,
Nobody knows which way you are bound,
You never told always so proud,
May be you will find a place to stop,
Go away now don't stop,
Don't turn back you are making it hard,
Go now I will be ok with a broken heart,
You never even tried to know me,
Acting like you are the only one lonely,
When all your love is gone,
The emptiness will be filled with pain,
For once this heart will be chained,
No longer will be torn,
When everything will be said n done,
You wouldn't be there its hard enough knowing,
I have tried everything to keep you from going,
Nothing seems to work,
But now the more I try the more it hurts,
I guess You have to leave to truly understand me,
What we shared was special and what it could have been,
I guess regrets will bring you down,
And I can't sleep over these feelings I own,
I hope you know the saying,
You don't know what you have till its gone,
And all this,
When your love is gone*

My side of the story

this is the story of my life,
it starts with
u will know me when I die,
this is what i felt inside,
you dont really know me,
but this is my side of the story,
nobody knows this is untold,
so much pain and I swallow it all,
waited so long but you never called,
I was mistaken you are not what I thought,
You never cared or so i thought,
You saw me crying but never the tears,
But I wiped them, now the vision is clear,
All you ever cared about was yourself,
Called but only when you want help,
Lets not get into all that,
You hurt my feelings you know what you did,
Even writing about this feels so stupid,
In this rollercoaster life I thought I would hold on to you,
I was there but you just did what you had to do,
You are no different from all my so called friends,
I judged you wrong so what next,
My life is a story half untold,
Half misconstrued,
Only ugly duckling in the brood,
Always misunderstood,
Bring the pain I m ready for more,
I want some more,
The broken heart I carry, You just broke a lil more,
But this is not something you should know,
I will keep giving no matter what you do,
Friendship was one sided something I dont have to prove,
You are smart enough to know better,
There have been many like you that I have weathered,
Someday you will understand
Where I stand, What I m
But till then
Let it be*

still writing

i dont post but it doesnt mean i aint writing nothing
i m just waiting for the right time to post