Beautiful Struggle

This pain somewhat like
Bubbles in the water,they form they dissolve,
trapped in a bottle,they storm my resolve,
how soon they lost their form,
a few seconds since they were born,
their short life and i stand tall,
its the hard times,
not the happy that make us,
but me nobody gave me no favors,
I thank Lord for the good and the bad,
when i struggle to control my laughter,
and times when i wished i was dead,
Life is a leveler,
hellcruiser and heaven dweller,
if it wasnt for pain,
I wouldnt know what joy is,
If it wasnt for silence
i wouldnt know what noise is,
so i calm myself with music,
When i hear voices,
I tear through struggle
Like i prepare for trouble
I hope for the best
prepare for the worst,
And nothing could satisfy,
my thirstto achieve what i want,
nothing can deter me
i have been knee deep in dirt,
i know i deserve it.....

black

make me smile in a hurry
my vision is blurry
i came from the dark
let me go but first whats my part
we lived years apart
tear up my chest u will still find ur name on my heart*

rising tied

rising tide
finds wings to ride
little children run at ease
all reckless told to say cheese,
i die with a moan
my breath finds itself grown
my name is desire
my religion to aspire *

Time to die (Fade to black)

There's nothing left to live for,
There's nothing left to be done,
Nothing left to become
Only wait till I return,
Just me and this gun,
All the promises fulfilled,
All my peers killed,
None of my feelings concealed,
I outlasted all of them,
I blasted all of them,
I fought all my fears,
All my friends, none of them in tears,
I stood tall through all the struggle
I m good but all u saw was the trouble,
I made my parents proud,
Devils inside, So all my tenants loud,
I have shovel in my hand,
Its about time but I shall be done by then,
I m digging my own grave,
Yes I m goin, aint nobody gonna save,
Time to die,
I feel like Jesus Christ planning my own death,
Few breaths to go Infact only one left,
My tombstone shall read Born to prove everybody wrong,
But I shall love all those who stay strong,
In the event of my demise,
When light shall no longer penetrate these eyes,
Time to die
Mine's to-night
Fade to Black
till I come back*

Outcast

They say you are in impression,
of your parents,
if not them,
then your brother and sister,
they say you are influenced,
most by your mentor,
But I don't have none,
They say you do what your friends do,
I have many but almost all of them so called,
They say you want to be like your peers,
consiously or subconsiously,
Well, I m nothing like them,
me and my brother,
don't get along at all,
I m not like my friends,
always trying to fit in,
me and my friends
always compromising,
I hate my peers,
I suffer from no peer pressure,
theres almost a generation gap,
Its like i m not from the same era,
In school my teachers were pushing me,
making me learn what comes natural to me,
When I read the Bible few questions arise,
Do I have to go to church to find God,
And a few more I can't disclose
they say an artist has different views on the world
so is it so that i think different just bcoz i m an artist
i dont think so
so what do u label a person
who does not fit in the normal mould?
not llike everybody around him
you label him you call him
An outcast

Can You hear me?

Can You hear me?
Before I wasn’t but now I speak so clearly,
Everybody’s trying to push me now,
What should I do for You to be around,
But if You could only,
I m like the wind nothing can hold me,
My father told me,
God’s favorites have a hard time,
After all I have been through I can’t say I m all fine,
You said God “ I shall never forsake thee
I have engraved thee on the palms of my hand”
So where are You God coz alone I stand,
Why have You forsaken me? Coz I ran
Through hell without a friend,
I m going crazy in my mind,
Tell me I demand when will it be my time,
A true heart, shouldn’t that account for something,
My life has been like now or nothing,
I control myself but so much pain,
I feel like me against everybody once again,
I just wanna keep my sanity,
Everybody’s tryin to get at me,
Or is it so that You are mad at me,
If that’s the case give me that moment of clarity,
Do I have to go against everybody to be free,
Or is it me just trying to be me,
Even Moses had to go against his own kind,
Do I have to go through this only to know what I find,
The other side will be much better,
This aint blasphemy, This is a letter,
Just a few questions I had to ask You , God,
You already know where this is coming from*