we were never friends,
We are just somebody who went college together,
we just spend 3 best years together,
we shared many a laughs,
some cherished, some left unnoticed,
I have nothing on you,
I learnt a lot from you,
You were a lot smarter,
I called you on your b'day every year after,
I waited for the call that never came,
What if I miss you and the times we spent together,
But we were never friends and whatever,
You felt like I had crush on you or something,
I was just tryin to be a good friend and nothing,
I thought you knew me better,
Considering how many times I called you after class,
No questions asked,
I have had many a back stabbing friends
So these words are the aftermath,
I thought you were different, somebody who understands me,
But u didnt nor my friends did,
I used to bunk college and I made u bunk too,
I watched your back and see that you come through
I was always there you left with ends open,
somethings are better left unspoken,
I don't know why am I feeling so bad still?
About somebody I was never friends with*
Friday, December 30, 2005
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
What 2 write!
I don't know what 2 write,
About the flow I recite,
Or what I decide,
About the struggle I've been through,
Or the troubles I sent you,
Honestly, I don't know what to write,
I am emotionally exhausted,
What more I wanted,
Next verse I write when the feelings comeback,
You know how the line goes, Been there done that,
I don't know what 2 write,
All the friends I miss,
Or should it be about the girl I kissed,
Regrets I have, Or the battles I have braved,
Roads are grave, but more I have paved,
Comebacks I have staged,
Or the rapids I have raged,
The demons I have caged,
Or the hate inside me,
I wasn't born with a pen but I m sure to die with,
But guess what? I don't know what 2 write,
Next verse when I decide,
Killpride or 4186 I ride,
The country I represent,
Or the worries I have 2 end,
No words for those who question me,
Coz I have learnt what patience is,
I m writing my life away,
Its gonna be my time oneday,
My words will live on even if I die,
Now that I know what 2 write*
About the flow I recite,
Or what I decide,
About the struggle I've been through,
Or the troubles I sent you,
Honestly, I don't know what to write,
I am emotionally exhausted,
What more I wanted,
Next verse I write when the feelings comeback,
You know how the line goes, Been there done that,
I don't know what 2 write,
All the friends I miss,
Or should it be about the girl I kissed,
Regrets I have, Or the battles I have braved,
Roads are grave, but more I have paved,
Comebacks I have staged,
Or the rapids I have raged,
The demons I have caged,
Or the hate inside me,
I wasn't born with a pen but I m sure to die with,
But guess what? I don't know what 2 write,
Next verse when I decide,
Killpride or 4186 I ride,
The country I represent,
Or the worries I have 2 end,
No words for those who question me,
Coz I have learnt what patience is,
I m writing my life away,
Its gonna be my time oneday,
My words will live on even if I die,
Now that I know what 2 write*
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Friday, November 18, 2005
Talk to me
Sit beside, And talk to me.
I know we are strangers now,
But time will pass and we'll be friends,
Speak your mind, But also speak from your heart,
Talk to me,
Tell me your miseries,
Tell me about your regrets,
I promise I will tell nobody,
You can trust me, I will keep the secret,
I know life is hard But I also know we can start,
I have got my own battles to fight,
But over time I will make your battles mine,
Talk to me.
Talk to me so that I can share your pain,
Who broke your heart, I know how it feels
Coz I ve got a broken one too,
Open up to me, And I will open up to you,
Don't sit alone,
coz I havent found someone I can talk to either,
And I will watch you back When you are asleep,
And I will keep all the promises I give,
Sit beside me,
Talk to me*
I know we are strangers now,
But time will pass and we'll be friends,
Speak your mind, But also speak from your heart,
Talk to me,
Tell me your miseries,
Tell me about your regrets,
I promise I will tell nobody,
You can trust me, I will keep the secret,
I know life is hard But I also know we can start,
I have got my own battles to fight,
But over time I will make your battles mine,
Talk to me.
Talk to me so that I can share your pain,
Who broke your heart, I know how it feels
Coz I ve got a broken one too,
Open up to me, And I will open up to you,
Don't sit alone,
coz I havent found someone I can talk to either,
And I will watch you back When you are asleep,
And I will keep all the promises I give,
Sit beside me,
Talk to me*
Trouble is...
Gratitude is burden,
Revenge is pleasure,
Mayhem is music,
Chaos a delight,
So I hold the gun next to me when i write,
Death is incarnation,
You realise this,
And it was only lie you were making,
When more time you start wasting,
Your heart keeps pacing,
but it was really time you were wasting,
thats was the trouble is.
Never did drugs Never will do,
Rest assured coz I will never leave you,
Rest assured coz you will never be who?
somebody else, whenevery thing seems well,
And everysecond seems hell,
In our mind, the satan he dwells,
Fear the beholder,
Coz you just don't know him,
Mirror in front of you,
isn't as clear as you wish 2,
But again meanings are relative,
What I meant was not what I meant,
So see you when I reach the pinnacle,
Cherish the pain, I say it again,
Like many else I will be nobody
till somebody kills me,
so let me do it my self,
No, Not kill myself
Make my self somebody
But the trouble is...
Revenge is pleasure,
Mayhem is music,
Chaos a delight,
So I hold the gun next to me when i write,
Death is incarnation,
You realise this,
And it was only lie you were making,
When more time you start wasting,
Your heart keeps pacing,
but it was really time you were wasting,
thats was the trouble is.
Never did drugs Never will do,
Rest assured coz I will never leave you,
Rest assured coz you will never be who?
somebody else, whenevery thing seems well,
And everysecond seems hell,
In our mind, the satan he dwells,
Fear the beholder,
Coz you just don't know him,
Mirror in front of you,
isn't as clear as you wish 2,
But again meanings are relative,
What I meant was not what I meant,
So see you when I reach the pinnacle,
Cherish the pain, I say it again,
Like many else I will be nobody
till somebody kills me,
so let me do it my self,
No, Not kill myself
Make my self somebody
But the trouble is...
Sunday, November 13, 2005
2 Hell n Back(Hellcruiser for Life Part II)
Momma's boy, Younger but stronger,
You wonder, You ponder,
I came up, You wander,
Seen summers, thru saunas,
Won thunders, Been under,
Not a drummer but on the vocals,
Lost way not focus,
I m a Sagi, been friends with Taurus,
Did what you never thought I would, And repeat,
Tasted success and defeat,
Been through the battles, Many stars learned,
I ride till the wheels fell off,
Hellcruiser, Answered the hell's call,
Had the devil biting dust,
I rose but I was dying first,
I ain't lying much, but I m eying some,
Never afraid to try it, once,
Some still question my ways,
Its like been questioned by the nation I saved,
Far away I went from the place I was raised,
Never in my life that place I disgrace,
Me chillin', reminise on the days,
Never change my mind, guarantee I say,
Calm waters run deep I say,
Call my friends Once a week I may,
Breathe like plants, yes I did my thing,
Leaves yellow in fall, Green in spring,
Black Sheep, Yes, I did my bid,
I went the other side, Grass be green I wished,
But no matter what, its mind over matter,
And those who matter, won't mind,
She loves me, Shes love me lot,
But may be worst she's got,
So alone but I watch these people come,
And I watched these people go,
Am I the culprit or am I the victim,
Forget my pain and the joy that I did bring,
Life often is the same,
Now I ask can you relate?
Its hell before heaven,
Ten before Eleven,
So you gotta cruise hell before you get a piece of the sky,
And this you can't defy,
But for me its hellcruiser for life!!*
You wonder, You ponder,
I came up, You wander,
Seen summers, thru saunas,
Won thunders, Been under,
Not a drummer but on the vocals,
Lost way not focus,
I m a Sagi, been friends with Taurus,
Did what you never thought I would, And repeat,
Tasted success and defeat,
Been through the battles, Many stars learned,
I ride till the wheels fell off,
Hellcruiser, Answered the hell's call,
Had the devil biting dust,
I rose but I was dying first,
I ain't lying much, but I m eying some,
Never afraid to try it, once,
Some still question my ways,
Its like been questioned by the nation I saved,
Far away I went from the place I was raised,
Never in my life that place I disgrace,
Me chillin', reminise on the days,
Never change my mind, guarantee I say,
Calm waters run deep I say,
Call my friends Once a week I may,
Breathe like plants, yes I did my thing,
Leaves yellow in fall, Green in spring,
Black Sheep, Yes, I did my bid,
I went the other side, Grass be green I wished,
But no matter what, its mind over matter,
And those who matter, won't mind,
She loves me, Shes love me lot,
But may be worst she's got,
So alone but I watch these people come,
And I watched these people go,
Am I the culprit or am I the victim,
Forget my pain and the joy that I did bring,
Life often is the same,
Now I ask can you relate?
Its hell before heaven,
Ten before Eleven,
So you gotta cruise hell before you get a piece of the sky,
And this you can't defy,
But for me its hellcruiser for life!!*
What up Ni!
What up Ni How are you?
11 months later Yes I m still thinking of you
I wished I would have been able to meet you before I left,
And you know my friends they are of little but no help,
So howz life goin', How are your so called friends doin',
I m here alone, But you know that I m improvin',
I bet you have made new friends,
Are you arrogant as usual, And you know what then,
Yes, I m missin you,
I wished I would have left you some songs to listen to,
I hope I can call you sometime,
But to be honest, I did try one time,
Can't forget your smiling face,
But I regret all the time I waste,
Can't forget all the time we spent,
I m writing my life away, I hope now you understand,
Me and what my love really meant,
Now its too late I can't come back anyways,
This is my promise that I will return,
To see you and see what you have become,
To see whether you are beautiful than ever,
Which sure You will be, but have you become that for better?
And see if you remember the face?
The face that you drove crazy,
And if you still remember killpride and 4186,
It is difficult for me yes I hate this,
I bet I would have changed then,
I guess I shouldn't say that,
I 've got lot to say may be later now,
Thats it for now, I will go, time is major now,
What up Ni!
11 months later Yes I m still thinking of you
I wished I would have been able to meet you before I left,
And you know my friends they are of little but no help,
So howz life goin', How are your so called friends doin',
I m here alone, But you know that I m improvin',
I bet you have made new friends,
Are you arrogant as usual, And you know what then,
Yes, I m missin you,
I wished I would have left you some songs to listen to,
I hope I can call you sometime,
But to be honest, I did try one time,
Can't forget your smiling face,
But I regret all the time I waste,
Can't forget all the time we spent,
I m writing my life away, I hope now you understand,
Me and what my love really meant,
Now its too late I can't come back anyways,
This is my promise that I will return,
To see you and see what you have become,
To see whether you are beautiful than ever,
Which sure You will be, but have you become that for better?
And see if you remember the face?
The face that you drove crazy,
And if you still remember killpride and 4186,
It is difficult for me yes I hate this,
I bet I would have changed then,
I guess I shouldn't say that,
I 've got lot to say may be later now,
Thats it for now, I will go, time is major now,
What up Ni!
Sunday, October 02, 2005
Born and raised in...
Born and raised where the dogs chase, Full of respect and all praise,
My heart is where my home is now and for always, I remember all days fine,
I m in pain but I carry a colgate smile,
Wanna change my life, Won't change mine, Those days fine, Ghost days like,
Sun rises in the east but ways i shine, Another day later, postage arrives,
Can't sayI have no regrets, It was a dream and i woke up in cold sweat,
Can't give up my mother told that, I would have shunned but i learnt to tolerate,
wasn't born with a silver spoon but i ate off gold plate,
I learnt to iron the wrinkles coz i didn't get clothes folded,
Lot of souls lost where the crossroads end,
But crossroads the place where lost souls end,
Lot of friends with empty bottles and ashtrays filled, Wasting time, many a beautiful faces killed, Youth of my nation are in a state of mind that can't be explained,
We prayed everytime it rained and everytime it didn't rain,
But future is better for the children, Coz many went 2 be adored by the millions,
And this is the path we sought so dearly, And many made a path to follow, so clearly,
Far away from the milky way the word spread, You couldn't be from the third they said,
World takes notice, Now everybody loves the underdog,
And under what circumstances we came up only we know,
Neighbours Envy, Even owners envy, Got talents plenty but the errands ran this,
West, that where my parents sent me, I do this for my culture, if u know what i mean,
I do this for Saffron White and Green
It is more than a song, the song that we sing two times a year,
But does this mean we are concerned about our country just two times a year,
So does this mean two times the love, What do they call it, You find the word,
So every morning in schools across the nation the song is heard,
But its due time we learn, I want to say a lot , but i end up saying something,
Go ahead write us off, Don't say nothing,
And don't judge me coz u don't know what it is to be,
Born and raised in India.
My heart is where my home is now and for always, I remember all days fine,
I m in pain but I carry a colgate smile,
Wanna change my life, Won't change mine, Those days fine, Ghost days like,
Sun rises in the east but ways i shine, Another day later, postage arrives,
Can't sayI have no regrets, It was a dream and i woke up in cold sweat,
Can't give up my mother told that, I would have shunned but i learnt to tolerate,
wasn't born with a silver spoon but i ate off gold plate,
I learnt to iron the wrinkles coz i didn't get clothes folded,
Lot of souls lost where the crossroads end,
But crossroads the place where lost souls end,
Lot of friends with empty bottles and ashtrays filled, Wasting time, many a beautiful faces killed, Youth of my nation are in a state of mind that can't be explained,
We prayed everytime it rained and everytime it didn't rain,
But future is better for the children, Coz many went 2 be adored by the millions,
And this is the path we sought so dearly, And many made a path to follow, so clearly,
Far away from the milky way the word spread, You couldn't be from the third they said,
World takes notice, Now everybody loves the underdog,
And under what circumstances we came up only we know,
Neighbours Envy, Even owners envy, Got talents plenty but the errands ran this,
West, that where my parents sent me, I do this for my culture, if u know what i mean,
I do this for Saffron White and Green
It is more than a song, the song that we sing two times a year,
But does this mean we are concerned about our country just two times a year,
So does this mean two times the love, What do they call it, You find the word,
So every morning in schools across the nation the song is heard,
But its due time we learn, I want to say a lot , but i end up saying something,
Go ahead write us off, Don't say nothing,
And don't judge me coz u don't know what it is to be,
Born and raised in India.
Saturday, September 24, 2005
Another Battle
a day comes and a day goes
and i now that God knows
days r long but i don't get rattled
so i live to fight another battle
mom misses me and so
i will write a poem for sure
i got more than a few things on my mind
i m all alone no friends bymy side
i hold on to them even if dreams get shattered
see another day for another battle
skies are gloomy
but u wudnt say that if u knew me
mom's thinking of me coz i aint there
Tell her i fear God but i aint scared
this struggle only made me better
so i can fight and live to fight another battle*
and i now that God knows
days r long but i don't get rattled
so i live to fight another battle
mom misses me and so
i will write a poem for sure
i got more than a few things on my mind
i m all alone no friends bymy side
i hold on to them even if dreams get shattered
see another day for another battle
skies are gloomy
but u wudnt say that if u knew me
mom's thinking of me coz i aint there
Tell her i fear God but i aint scared
this struggle only made me better
so i can fight and live to fight another battle*
i miss y'all
i miss the country i grewup in
i miss my neighbour hood
i miss my land
i miss my friends
i miss my parents
i miss the sky
i miss the sun
i miss my cousins
i miss my blood brothers
i miss the heat
i miss the simple joys
i miss my home
i miss my neighbours
i miss my bike
i miss the time i used to waste
i miss the simple sin
i miss bni
i miss india each n everything
but so that u know i remember
i miss y'all
i miss my neighbour hood
i miss my land
i miss my friends
i miss my parents
i miss the sky
i miss the sun
i miss my cousins
i miss my blood brothers
i miss the heat
i miss the simple joys
i miss my home
i miss my neighbours
i miss my bike
i miss the time i used to waste
i miss the simple sin
i miss bni
i miss india each n everything
but so that u know i remember
i miss y'all
watchin my back
as i walk through the valley of shadow of death,
i m fearless in my every breath
what should i fear? whom should i fear?
i stay wise and humble,
eventhough i fall and stumble,
what can mere mortals do to me?
nothing is the answer for u 2 see
i need to stay true in everything i do
He is watchin my back
And guides me everywhere i go
in times of despair, in times of joy He leads me for sure,
He has given me everything what can i ask for more,
there are two footprints on the sand,
and then He picked me up in His hand
it will be this way
today, till the end of the way,
who else can i trust in this world
i put my trust in His word,
and i know everytime i feel insecure
he is watchin my back*
i m fearless in my every breath
what should i fear? whom should i fear?
i stay wise and humble,
eventhough i fall and stumble,
what can mere mortals do to me?
nothing is the answer for u 2 see
i need to stay true in everything i do
He is watchin my back
And guides me everywhere i go
in times of despair, in times of joy He leads me for sure,
He has given me everything what can i ask for more,
there are two footprints on the sand,
and then He picked me up in His hand
it will be this way
today, till the end of the way,
who else can i trust in this world
i put my trust in His word,
and i know everytime i feel insecure
he is watchin my back*
black sheep
young i was yes i remember,
still in my teens it was december,
overlooked n hated,
for this i wishedi wudn't have waited,
grew up in a house where everything i did i had 2 ask,
i was first but felt like last
weak in studies thought i wud make it all good for sure,
instead i lived alienated all the more,
like a black sheep which has no luck,
couldn't speak my tongue was stuck,
hated playin second fiddle,
trouble and i was in the middle
tired of living under the shadow,
this sheep would have better run away from the meadow,
like a bomb i m ready 2 explode,
stranded on this hell road,
still im a black sheep,
nobody 2 dry my tears when i weep,
no friends while i stand everybody goes,
still overlooked and Lord knows,
wolf took away this sheep never to return again,
still in solitude i stay true,
put my faith in Jahovah and what i do,
no angel in sight no promise 2 keep,
there would never be peace enough to sleep
there would never be peace for this black sheep*
still in my teens it was december,
overlooked n hated,
for this i wishedi wudn't have waited,
grew up in a house where everything i did i had 2 ask,
i was first but felt like last
weak in studies thought i wud make it all good for sure,
instead i lived alienated all the more,
like a black sheep which has no luck,
couldn't speak my tongue was stuck,
hated playin second fiddle,
trouble and i was in the middle
tired of living under the shadow,
this sheep would have better run away from the meadow,
like a bomb i m ready 2 explode,
stranded on this hell road,
still im a black sheep,
nobody 2 dry my tears when i weep,
no friends while i stand everybody goes,
still overlooked and Lord knows,
wolf took away this sheep never to return again,
still in solitude i stay true,
put my faith in Jahovah and what i do,
no angel in sight no promise 2 keep,
there would never be peace enough to sleep
there would never be peace for this black sheep*
Friday, August 12, 2005
Against all odds
God guide me with thy staff and thy rod,
Coz I m going against all odds,
I ve made it this far without a scar,
This world is tryin to pull me apart,
I ve got the will and I ve got the heart,
I ve been up to the challenges thus far,
I thank You God, for everything but I don’t know where to start,
Be my guiding light,
And lead me through ups and downs of life,
Give me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Make my tongue numb, so that I can swallow the pain,
Give me the courage to change the things I can,
For that help me plan,
Times are hard, so my stares get harder,
I ve seen this before I aint no starter,
I know if I believe, I can achieve,
And I know I will, for the blessings I receive,
Odds are many,
But I hope hard times never catch me,
I’ve put on the line, everything I’ve got,And I m goin against all odds
Coz I m going against all odds,
I ve made it this far without a scar,
This world is tryin to pull me apart,
I ve got the will and I ve got the heart,
I ve been up to the challenges thus far,
I thank You God, for everything but I don’t know where to start,
Be my guiding light,
And lead me through ups and downs of life,
Give me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Make my tongue numb, so that I can swallow the pain,
Give me the courage to change the things I can,
For that help me plan,
Times are hard, so my stares get harder,
I ve seen this before I aint no starter,
I know if I believe, I can achieve,
And I know I will, for the blessings I receive,
Odds are many,
But I hope hard times never catch me,
I’ve put on the line, everything I’ve got,And I m goin against all odds
Friday, August 05, 2005
guess who's back
its me back on the top again
back wher i belong
back to take my rightful place
i m backkkkkkkkkk
i aint tryin to brag
its goin to be RICK till i drop dead
back wher i belong
back to take my rightful place
i m backkkkkkkkkk
i aint tryin to brag
its goin to be RICK till i drop dead
do you remember
summer was ther i remember
i was young and it was fun
it was 45 c and i was still out playing guess what
cricket
crazy it seems now
i didnt seem then
must have been crazy
one thing i regret is that those dayz would not come back
and i will miss that forever
i miss those dayz so much i wish i could go back
i was young and it was fun
it was 45 c and i was still out playing guess what
cricket
crazy it seems now
i didnt seem then
must have been crazy
one thing i regret is that those dayz would not come back
and i will miss that forever
i miss those dayz so much i wish i could go back
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