A Cappella

my past was hard,
so is my present,
but if whats written shall be,
than my child shall reap
i know hells deep,
but i came back,
eventhough i aint learnt to swim yet,
life is a big mess,
but i dont count my regrets,
i m just glad to be blessed,
coz a father reprimands the son
he loves the most, but i aint the one,
i m just trying to be myself till the day is done*

My land

This is the place i learnt to walk,
What I m about to say is more than a thought,
I left, But its more than a sense of price it has brought,
Years of struggle and with what patience it was fought,
Can not be expressed so i aint even gonna try,
God's Country now thats bonafide,

Where the sun makes my eyes go blind,
Rainbow of emotions can not be confined,
Finds inspiration amongs the turmoil,
Clouds quence the thristy firm soil,
And also heals the empty souls,
Everyday is an epic, thats barely told,
where patience runs miles without a gold,
Heroes are forgotten, A movie is needed to rekindle his relevance,
He probably was heaven sent,
The smoke chokes and I breathe it all in,
Coz a billion people are there to pick me up if ever i m falling,
Amen, Now break bread,
Far and wide the seeds spread,
May my body be one with this soil when i m dead,
I gave my body if nothing else else is what i said,
May the blessings be countless, and the country live long,
No matter where i go i know where i belong,
21 gun salute and look how tall i stand,
this is my land*

Nothing can stop you

Don't let me stare into those eyez,
I might get lost b4 I realize,
There's so much to talk
But we never even sit, worse still never even walk,
We should go to a place that isn't so loud,
May be we should ride a cloud,
Melt our thoughts, fall down like snowflake,
This life i know we both hate,
Who else is there for me to talk to,
When you are with me, tell me who's there to stop you*

Painting myself in a corner

My heart is crazy,
It wanders for love in all the wrong places,
But i guess everybody has to go through these phases,
And this love has too many damn faces,
my heart beat races,
it settles for once, when I m next to her,
My heart doesn't learn, it needs a tutor,
finds itself broken, very so often,
A broken hearts stays broken even if it is joined so proper,
But may be its a broken heart that I need to write so painful,
Just so that you know, carrying a broken heart ain't cool*

Acquittal

" Thy shall not be afraid"
is what He said,
He knows me by my name,
Sacrifice my son for YOu, I shall not refrain,
I ain't Abraham,
But I know to wait after I say Amen,
Not on my knees, But I m humble,
I know the trouble,
The trouble You went through for me,
In this life I shall never be lonely,
1000 shall fall beside me,
something can touch me now thats less than likely,
I ain't washed in Holy water,
Then why am I so special, I m a mere mortal,
I have angels on both of my shoulders,
They fight for me, they are my guardian soilders,
Thank YOu, Today, I ma day older,
take this into account when You close my folder,
I carried a true heart,
since the day I began to breathe fast*

All you sought!

Let me stare into your eyez.
Let me read your mind,
be surprised by what I find,
Few feelings can't be defined,
So much to say, so few words,
Your eyez cover all that hurts,
" Go away fly" open the cage for the birds,
All they need is to be spurred,
Take a bucket empty the pain,
Life I know is barely sane,
Let me bleed for you, You know I love the odds,
May be this is the reason I came from abroad,
Your mind is murky but not the thought,
I m weak now but I shall try to give you, all you sought*

Endure

Paths of truth and struggle
are rough ridden,
I guess, what happened,
Or is about to happen is also written,
So all i have is faith,
I can't give up knowing its hard,
After the night comes the light,
That hope i carry in my heart,
Nothing lasts forever,
So all this strugglin is gonna end soon,
its only matter of time,
this air shall fill this vaccum,
my mother told me not to give up,
so everytime it gets hard i remember what she said,
thats enough reason for me to hold on,
I remember the verses i read,
I m ready for whatever
coz i have seen worse,
i came through and now i m stronger,
now all i have is the thirst,
to go further and success shall be in my grasp
I just wanna make my patience last*

In Vain

I gave u my heart,
but u gave it back ripped apart,
my feelings die a quick death,
it struggles to hold on to the last breath,
but the will to survive brings it back to life,
to live alone, i know what its like,
so leave me alone, thats what i m asking,
open the window, for the air, i m gasping*

The day in a life of...

I wake up, find things to do,
Got a few missed calls from don't know who
brush my teeth, find nothing to drink
I m running behind schedule b4 I could think,
time to begin another day,
gotta check the weather, hoping summer stays,
old socks see the laundry bag,
the towel sees my bare back,
i miss the bus now another 15 minutes,
shuffle a few songs for another nostalgic visit,
hop on a subway, and i realise i missed a meal,
so its back pocket to drill,
it has to be something cinnamon,
gotta pay my sweet tooth its dividend,
a bottle of iced tea to keep my throat wet,
a lot less modern but they call it the rocket,
carries me slowly to my stop,
and again theres a 5 minute walk,
boss is mad coz usually i m on time,
my coworkers ask me if i m fine,
i pretend to, i think they know it too,
few hours on and the back pain raises it ugly hood,
gotta eat now all i ate since morning was a donut,
i m getting mad knowing these customers r so dumb,
and hunger is making matters worse,
but before that time to scatter dust,
finally i get to eat, and 5 minutes to beat,
back to work againi m holding my back
few minutes of pain and i start ignoring that,
may be its sleep or working long hours the day before,
whats the reason i m not sure,
finally the rush is less,
time to relax,
i m getting calls but i can't talk,
5 to 7 missed calls thats what i got,
i gotta eat something b4 i leave,
i leave without nothing, you wouldnt believe,
12 is the time i get off, but i m there till 45,
we talk about girls, politics and what we like,
damn i missed my bus gotta run to catch the next one,
wait a moment i gotta put my words into action,
i hope to reach fast, or else i will have to walk home,
all this time music gives me company,
i listen to those songs which are worthy,
music keeps me moving, have u heard that saying?
it only stops at night when i m praying,
ask God a few things not for myself,
God give me heaven coz i m already in hell*

Traveller

it only takes one word to hope
but moneywise i m broke,
just so that you know,
take my hand and i would go,
take me to the promised land,
we don't always get what we plan,
but still we do what we can,
i m a bigger person,
out of the 19" screen i only follow the little cursor,
can't lose sight of my goals,
no matter how old,
everybody has a story untold,
but with times i mould,
sometimes i can't stand,
And i just killed the sand bag*

Never had a friend like me

So what do u do
when your best friend acts like,
everybody u had to go thru to be where u stand,
when only person that was on ur side,
stands on the other,
i can't explain the pain u suffer,
when their pain was yours,
and their struggle was yours,
you felt the every inch of pain they felt,
And you forgive coz they left,
you gave ur best,
just to see them happy,
the ones with whom
you were closer than family,
the times you remember so well,
now u only wanna forget,
so now i m ready whatever may come,
coz i took enough shots without a gun,
they never even tried to,
never cared, who i was,
or what i was made of,
all the sacrifices made,
that never saw the light,
more than a few times, my soul died,
but i resurrected it more than twice,
friends come and friends go,
but me, i stand alone,
choices are made,
you all made it clear,
so i m ready for death or insanity,
whatever i near,
they did what they had to do,
they never tried to understand me,
or be the friend we can be,
i came through everyttime they tried me,
i guess its not their fault to,
bcoz they never had a friend like me*

Shine

Plants oscillate,
winds hug them like they relate,
sun shines bright,
colors fade in the night,
but for the morning, new colors to display,
many shall taste the nectar today,
bring an end to everybodys dismay,
i hope the whole 12 stays this way....

untitled

If pain is love,
i own a house,
but if not i m a street dweller,
if love is blind
i m a bank teller...

Eternally Sleepless

Breaking norms,
Taking forms,
may He warn,
I m making storms,
finding ways they inform,
peace is a word that needs reform,
all through the struggle its keeps me strong,
so tell me where does weak belong?
i blink an eye and the week is gone,
is this time travel or am i just faster,
my strings don't snap, so i praise the master,
my eyes go wet even in laughter,
let me live now, i shall sleep after*

Rage

Rivers rage and the rapids flow,
Music calms me like a tragic soul,
thats something i got the fetish for,
let me get high let the magic soar,
it is, if it is atleast known,
now my soul is that little grown,
this is what keeps me grounded on cloud 9,
and i come back when escalators r fine,
almost nothing rhymes,
and i find inspiration in torrid times,
when my fake smile shows, all seems fine,
i discover a planet and say its mine*

Paint

Patience is not a virtue
When the world is pushing me into a vaccum
who do i run to.
my future is doomed,
i slit my wrists and paint the room,
i should paint the sky instead,
it should be enough for the litres i had,
And with both hands i bled,
Yes, its true what you read,
Like winter miss mewhen my green leaves are dead

Beautiful Struggle

This pain somewhat like
Bubbles in the water,they form they dissolve,
trapped in a bottle,they storm my resolve,
how soon they lost their form,
a few seconds since they were born,
their short life and i stand tall,
its the hard times,
not the happy that make us,
but me nobody gave me no favors,
I thank Lord for the good and the bad,
when i struggle to control my laughter,
and times when i wished i was dead,
Life is a leveler,
hellcruiser and heaven dweller,
if it wasnt for pain,
I wouldnt know what joy is,
If it wasnt for silence
i wouldnt know what noise is,
so i calm myself with music,
When i hear voices,
I tear through struggle
Like i prepare for trouble
I hope for the best
prepare for the worst,
And nothing could satisfy,
my thirstto achieve what i want,
nothing can deter me
i have been knee deep in dirt,
i know i deserve it.....

black

make me smile in a hurry
my vision is blurry
i came from the dark
let me go but first whats my part
we lived years apart
tear up my chest u will still find ur name on my heart*

rising tied

rising tide
finds wings to ride
little children run at ease
all reckless told to say cheese,
i die with a moan
my breath finds itself grown
my name is desire
my religion to aspire *

Time to die (Fade to black)

There's nothing left to live for,
There's nothing left to be done,
Nothing left to become
Only wait till I return,
Just me and this gun,
All the promises fulfilled,
All my peers killed,
None of my feelings concealed,
I outlasted all of them,
I blasted all of them,
I fought all my fears,
All my friends, none of them in tears,
I stood tall through all the struggle
I m good but all u saw was the trouble,
I made my parents proud,
Devils inside, So all my tenants loud,
I have shovel in my hand,
Its about time but I shall be done by then,
I m digging my own grave,
Yes I m goin, aint nobody gonna save,
Time to die,
I feel like Jesus Christ planning my own death,
Few breaths to go Infact only one left,
My tombstone shall read Born to prove everybody wrong,
But I shall love all those who stay strong,
In the event of my demise,
When light shall no longer penetrate these eyes,
Time to die
Mine's to-night
Fade to Black
till I come back*