Bad Credit

mind state is relative
and the anger is gravity,
i aint even tryin to give a fuck,
where i m from
u dont stand and stare,
u find the walls red,
find souls dead,
get lost in a zone,
tryin to find way away from home
make u not forget my name,
i m in love with this pain
can i see you again?
all the time spend waiting in vain
i think i m gonna die today
everyone who hurt me is gonna pay*

Beyond the relations that can be named

I don't know what is it about you,
I ain't your lover,
Nor am i trying to be one,
But don't blame me
if i become,

No its not your eyes.
that i m crazy bout,
are we friends?
something i really doubt,
coz you never ever call
As if i expect
I think sometimes you are unfair,
But all due respect
I can't say there's something
about you i really like,
but when i talk to you
it really feels nice.

No i ain't rich,
But if u ever need something just ask,
I do wanna ask you something
don't forget me so fast,
But above all , all i want from you,
is for you to be happy always,
I don't care what you do, what you do.

I wanna see you everyday,
But I know somethings just can't happen,
just so that you know,
I think of you every second.

I thought I would buy you flowers,
But they would dry,
So I wrote down these words,
Coz they wouldn't lie.

I hope you get everything you want,
enjoy, have fun, stay the same,
But what I share with u is,
Beyond the relations that can be named*

You, Not Someone like you

No, I ain't saying
I haven't met someone like you,
Its just that
I haven't met someone like you,
Words are lost,
And I ain't even tryin,
Its like theres a string
we are connected by,
An unbroken chord,
An unspoken bond,
I don't even talk so much,
and you still get the message,
Now what you call this,
I don't even wanna go there,
OK, So I lied,
I m lost in your thoughts,
And I don't even wanna come back,
keep me grounded,
If I ever fall,

I don't even do drugs,
And I feel addicted,
Its like all the pain shifted,
I have been so alone,
I think I get carried away,
But then again,
I know if one is worth wasting my time,

You call and I ain't got
Nothing to say,
As if I don't know
What to say
All I know
I wanna be with
You, not someone like you*

Peace of Shit Part 2

You are following the legacy of bastards
characterized by disobeying masters,
killing impostors,
wearing cloak of monsters,
rather coming off obnoxious
u cachinate in laughter,
waiting for life after,
soldiers die martyrs,
the thoughts make u die faster
Achtung Baby!!!! or should I say Be cautious
life is like jigsaw everybody wants a piece of it,
But it ain't nothing but a peace of shit*

Scribble Hard

Rise deeper,
up to the Brim,

Calm waters run shallow,
or so I say
I may be wrong,
Put your mind to it,

I m just tryna calculate
if my pen's aligned to it

the moment is bout to pass,
I just broke the time barrier
the words will last*

Abide

They say good things don't last long,
So I guess they were right,
But I don't believe in all this,
And like you said everything happens for a reason
So there has to be a reason,
Why we had to meet for such a short time,
And why I decided to call you before I left.
I was like a dream just started and the alarm rang,

So can you tell me why does my heart feel so bad,
Why do I feel so sad?
When I left and I barely know you,
Why did I not sleep so well last night?
and was lost somewhere all day, today.

I will remember you always,
And what you said.
I don't believe in love at first sight
But then again I don't even know what love is.

I hate goodbyes,
Yet I m glad I called,
I wished I could have stolen a kiss
Before I would miss you like crazy forever,
But then again, nothing is forever
So I decide I would wait till we meet again*

Dumb

Actions speak louder than words
But me I was born dumb*

Fly

Fly
i saw a bird with broken wings
fly through the cracked sky,
i flap my one wing
and get ready to fly,
but i fear to soar and be hit by
an astray plane and die today,
atleast i tried
but why? you say

my skin hates my bones,
my brain hates my heart,
it wants my heart to be pulled apart,
but i follow my heart,
coz I was told so by the Father,
Life is getting harder,
the skies r getting darker,
I m ready for whats after,
So I wouldn't lie,
Lord give me wings to fly*

Reprise

picture says a thousand words,
but the scripture is left unread,
you want for Him to come,
but you can't find a reason why He bled*

Tearz of the Sun

I m like retarded kid
throwing ice cubes at the sun,
thinking it would melt
and the rain would come,
but i ain't ignorant
as to from where it rains,
despite all the struggle
i m willing to make a change,
i m tryna move moutains
without any help,
my place is the sky shall be reserved,
Just to His left,
words are meager,
like the faith is in the eye of the beholder,
hold this pen tight,
death isn't in the eyez of the heat holder,
loosen up my tie, take off the shirt,
let the sun warm my cold shoulder*

Calibres of an educated fool

Yes I remember I was in school,
teachers tryna make me learn
I barely understand,
what was the moral of the story
they would ask?
I wouldn't listen coz i was sitting last,
its more than a chapter of my past,

I always would stand out in the crowd,
not bcoz i was proud,
I could never relate to what my peers thought,
or what my teachers taught
teachers said i would amount to nothing,
but i guess i did learn something,
otherwise i wouldn't be writing this,
may be subconsciously,
coz consciously i didn't make an effort,
but now does it really matter

my parents put me through every teenagers nightmare,
cant really say i liked that,
but anyways it made me the person i m,

NO i ain't rich as i would like,
but there's way to go and anything is possible,
coz i m still breathing,
i ain't a quitter and I ain't leaving,
And I m a man and alone I stand,
i ain't got no ice on my arms,
no keys on my palm,
But i guess its all good
Coz i never let my studies
interfere with my education*

Taken

Give you everything you ever wanted,
Make you feel like you are on top of the world,
would be easy considering your feather weight curls,
But you are just a girl,
On second thought,
Not just an average girl,
that I see everyday,

You make me wanna love you in every way,
Wouldn't buy you flowers, coz they wither away,
I would rather take you to garden every day,

Love you for who you are,
Not just the way you dress,
I ain't saying all this to impress,

But pity, Coz all this
When you are already taken*

Leap of Faith

I know I ain't nobody,
to tell you what you do,
But this Yes I tell you
my dear friend,
Just so that you know,
And you won't get hurt
I ain't telling you
Not to fall in love,
Just don't let the love
hold the reins,
I know what you might think,
What do I know about love?
But if I could show my broken heart,
You wouldn't say the same,

Love somebody,
but not more than yourself,
I have been there and done that,
And done with it,
Believe me if you could,
those seconds of heaven
are nothing,
compared to the pain,
that a broken heart brings you,
I ain't saying all men are alike,
and for sure I know all women either,

Dream I say,
But don't make them so hard,
then again its a matter of belief,
Coming from a dare devil like me
I know it sounds absurd,
Who am I tell you,
Not to take,
This leap of faith*

Write of Way

Pen is stronger than the knife,
I read that in the Book of Life,
So I write so deep,
that I bleed,

So many souls this art resurrected,
Through words we feel connected,
We broke the barriers of language and race,
All the scars and the damage replaced,

An outlet, to get it out,
An outset, to set it out,
A cup of wisdom, take a sip, pass it around,
If it wasn't for these words, Incognito would never be found,
If it wasn't for these words, I wouldn't be so proud,
But then again I wouldn't touch the ground,

So many of us would have died unnoticed,
So many of us would have cried feeling hopeless,
And I m thinking, What if,
These words I couldn't vomit,
the cancer had flourished,
My soul malnourished,

But I let my knife cut the green,
My pen praise Him,
For the talent He has granted,
Coz the Write of way
isn't that far left*

Re- Kindle

Bible has words that Christ wrote,
Words are dope,
Inspires me when I m broke,
Giving wings to my hope,
Never learn to jump rope,
I just learnt to be true
every time I spoke,
Get reaction outta u like "OH NO"
Call me Loco,
Pass the torch When I m Dodo*

Things Happen to those who weight

Tearz make my eyez warm,
and my vision blurry,
makes your lips salty,
when you kiss me,
I ain't goin no where,
but you know what my wish be,
Will you leave me like rain leaves
the soil wet,
Coz then comes the wait,
something we all hate*

Like a Soulja

Like a Soulja I fight,
for the war I m in,
Days pass and winds blow,
hurdles come and hurdles go,
everyone of them surely I know,
Its like a swing to and fro,
Pillows wet, Eyez not shallow,
Can't tell this to my mom though,
Like a Soulja I fight for the war I m in,
I m back where I belong that I dream,
Few faces turn, all of them run,
I stand still, came undone,
Fastforward now, time to shun,
Every morning Chapters learnt,
Bleeding dry like cactus burnt,
Back in the dayz had some fun,
Soulja'z Life all in one,
War ,till I m back, I have just begun

One

Fortune favors the brave,
but my Saviour has been named,
King of the Kings,
the One residing in the sky,
Gives me reason to die,
my vision is high,
But you ask me why,
I say Why not?
And you say O My God!!!
I gotta rinse myself with my blood,
In order to be forgiven
Not like all but,
This mortal wants to make it even,
The Good die young,
Its true, you know where I m from,
I have been chosen,
Yes, I m the one*

Errors in mis-judgment

For the truly awakened
don't need eyes to see,
for those truly alive
don't need air to breathe,
whats in the name,
let my errors in mis-judgment speak,
Let me lay 6 feet deep
if ever I get weak,
my words will inherit,
coz they say the world shall be for the meek*

Forsaken Oasis

In the desert,
it quenches the thirsty,
something the lost
caravans wish for,
only source of water,
where the sun is merciless,
from far and wide,
the creatures gather,
the only hope
in the barren land,
such a promise for
lost souls,
but this one shall
be mistaken,
for a mirage
on the horizon,
it never got a chance
to give the life
it promised,
it never did,
Such is the life,
of a soul like mine,
a case of mistaken
identity
such is the fate of
a forsaken oasis*

Moment of Clarity

Its amazing how
silence speaks aloud
when you are alone,
and then you find
that moment you waited for
all along,
and you fall on your knees,
coz all of the 3 are merciful,
the focus is found,
things turn around,
and everything is in your stride,
no more reason to hide,
There has to be God,
He can read your thought,
Watching me from somewhere,
and your every breath,
reminds you to do whats right,
the purpose gets clear,
you can even touch
its so damn near,
and you choose to live,
with a new belief,
the sun suddenly get brighter,
the light of the stars is all
you need at night,
you gotta be there
to know what its like,
you gotta experience
to find this moment of clarity*

A Place like this..(Passage to Zion)

For all those tender at heart,
Who forgive at ease,
Who gives out smiles on lease,
Lend me a smile, I promise,
I will payback with interest,
For all those who are glad
to be blessed,
Pray for me to your God, whatever
the name be,
For those who see beyond
the color and the skin,
Ask my name and I will
take you to my home,
For those who take struggle in their stride,
and fight bravely,
Give me some of that too,
I will share it gladly,
For all those living young,
living like a child, still carefree,
Give me a moment, I can
runaway to the world of my own,
Where I know nobody other
than the people from my home,
Where the sky is blue as I like it,
and Sun warms my senses,
where the smiles of strangers
leaves my soul replenished,
Where the oceans seem empty
compared to the hearts of my people,
They will teach you how to live,
If I ever forget,
I told where I wanna go,
So now will you take me
to a place like this*

Do Knot Untie

So much to do
so little time,
So much to say
so few words,
Or so I say
you can see my wrists
I feel your pain,
Close your eyes,
I can read your mind,
this puzzled breath,
we long to solve,
this ancient potion
we want to dissolve,
what is the purpose?
Did I fly 7 seas,
just to see my mother cry,
Or the joy on her face
when I see her again,

So many questions,
if someone could answer,
Will someone descend,
when the blue skies open?
Or will this hope like broken,
Is this the Pandora's Box
or a knot tied too tight*

You Liar!

if ever the pain gets too much to bear
and for some reason I m not there
give me a call and I shall share,
I will let my back pack be covered by sand
carry your burden, walk hand in hand,
I only do for you what you do for me,
I m such a liar,
Everything I do for you is not enough,
and it doesn't mean much
you say I m a liar,
but time will prove,
you will be left speechless
with nothing to say!

Leave me alone

The itch was so bad
I scratched till I bled,
I cut so deep,
the whole floor was red,
But still alone I stand,
Leave me alone is what I meant,
Skies are dark n gloomy,
But when I m holdin this many
calibres I m moody*

Only when I m alone

Staring into nothing
my thoughts wander far and wide,
should I stay there or come back?
I can't decide
The rainbow seems pale
and there r only shades of black,
all this anger seems to be of no avail,
hold your breath make a wish for me,
I feel so lonely........

Nevermind

You took me for granted,
You spilled my drink,
YOu didn't even spare time to think,
I knew this would end,
and you thought every broken heart could mend,
I wrote your name on my heart,
now just to forget you I leave it scared,
may be you thought you just wasted time,
I can't really say, I m fine
but then again,
nevermind*

Trangress

I m dehydrated,
But you will hate it,
If I made it
I m drawing pictures at home,
When I m alone,
Trying to serenade,
Sipping Lemonade,
But it wasn't the venom, Wait!!!
that left the bitter taste in my mouth,
But you left as soon as you knew what I m about,
you went to Amazon and brought a few clouds,
It rained all day, you didn't even hear me murmur or shout,
World Wide Suicide couldn't bring us close enough,
I m the descendant of the Sun, I always had it rough,
But the righteous shall not be forsaken,
Coz I find inspiration in Him,
and this scripture is a known weapon*

Wrath

Should I slit my wrist?
Flood the city or Should I paint this town red?
or should I color the barren walls
with my words of graffiti,
Or should I go back
start with my own city,
In the land of the Gods
its hard to find pity,

State of mind .......to be continued

One word can make us all feel connected,
As if Christ resurrected,
How far should I go b4 I can't turn back
Should I just give it all up and run back,
Give me back my best years,
The "take in the chest" years,
I like my grass dry, no greener pastures,
Let me identify the bastards.........

Versus to be added

Should I grab my crucifix tight in these dark ages,
Or should I blast them all, fill up these pages,
My anger rages on,
The page is torn,
There is a cyclone in my mind,
You might go there and find,
Demons on a leash,
Freedom of speech,
Women on a wish,
Crimson and sweet,
Wisdom of discreet,
Theres so much I want to do
But so little time,
My heart is already broken,
Why you tryna fiddle mine?
Leave me alone, Coz if I rebel,
You wouldn't like it,
Strip you all off your Nikes,
So called ryderz strap you on your bike seats,
I m supposed to be nice kid,
My last name ain't Shakur,
But me against the world
Now thats more like it*

take me in!

I respire,
for you to conspire,
get higher,
only way to be flyer?
admire, the ways of the man
need to vest to take this gunfire,
aspire, for everything you wished for,
coz when you are gone they are not gonna miss y'all*

Pseudo Inferno

If the night seems long,
and the road seems hard,
Just open your eyez and day shall begin,
Stop right there and start living,
the sky shall be blue,
When theres nothing left to prove,
Look at the performer when the crowd wouldn't move,
Wanted to write something long but its only a line you drew,
Look back at your life how you were grown,
What change have you made on your own,
just wasted oxygen coz it was free,
Gave your life away but it wasn't me,
you pushed me to the edge, and your hand slipped,
NOw I shouldn't be so disrespectful I should be tight lipped,
Now can I be responsible for what my mind did,
mind over matter, many friends scatter,
so many dreams shatter,
Now I m one step closer to nirvana,
I love it all, Just hate the manner*

Solicitude

Wisdom is relative,
but do i have to do the imperative,
If God sends his angels,
Will we still be strangers?
Show me a star to meet somebody in a manger,
just going would be enough, No gifts needed,
I found bliss when I was defeated,
coz the demons on my shoulders were
meant to be greeted,
I cut their wings off, I found 'em seated,
I don't need to run away,
I stand and stare at the sun today*

Wishful Thinking

I know I shouldn't see you each day,
but I can't help myself I have to see you each day,
all my paths lead to you,
who else would I talk to,
If it wasn't for you,
But its only time that I sacrifice,
Let me get lost in your eyez,
May be the only place I would find peace,
Give you everything you want is my wish,
But all good things come to an end,
No matter what happens just be a friend,
You will be there is what I m hoping,
but we share a bond that is not to be broken*

Labyrinth

i m the labyrinth,
you can't battle me,
the most you can do is rattle me,
i m that wind that can't settle quick,
i got demons on my both shoulders,
my thoughts are like posters,
posters of focus,
y'all fail to notice,
coz these posters are in a dark alleys of the inner city,
only this mirror filthy,
it will take a genocide to kill me,
feel me*

The day that is today

Today you can tell me what you want 2 say,
the moment that is now,
the moment that is proud,
tomorrow isn't a promise,
It will pass by and I wouldn't notice,
the day that is today,
i can't say tomorrow will be a new day,
nobody has seen the day that is to come,
live today, coz it will not return,
today will help us to become,
today will hold us strong, tomorrow will weaker,
today is the confidant, tomorrow is indifferent,
can't say see you tomorrow coz if i pass away,
you will say i was with him just yesterday,
can i say love you again,
coz tomorrow i might not feel the same,
can i spit out my deepest desire,
i don't know what the day to come will require,
the day that is today,
the moment that is now,
let me live my life today

Ride the Rocket

Life is like riding the subway,
first you wait for the train to come,
coz you just missed one,
the phone doesn't work,
and worst still the strangers surround you,
But then you notice a beautiful face,
And you are thankful for God's grace,
And that you got late,
You come out of the tunnel,
its raining outside,
You praise the Lord,
Coz you don't have to walk outside,
But then comes the stop,
And you wonder if this is the stop
you are supposed to get off,
the darkness welcomes you,
And you hope, light at the end of the tunnel
awaits you,
frowns n the smiles force you to stare,
But do you really care?
just then you try to read the map,
trying to figure out if you are on the right track,
music gives you company,
when theres nothing to do,
but then comes the time to change,
Here comes, Yonge and Bloor*

Rising

Sky's fold,
I die cold,
You take away everything I strive for,
my dreams are like a leaf in a river,
its banks are rough, and I stare like beaver,
Waters ain't receding let me take a breather,
But I was born to be a winner,
I find inspiration in all the failure,
its 1492 and I am a sailor,
I earn more than the paper,
All the nights when I was on my knees ain't gonna vapour,
I don't even need to answer the question
who's my saviour?*

Tears suffice

When your eyez
find it hard to sleep,
I m drowning in this
sea so deep,
And you know I want
to change,
But you can't even
recall my name,
As it turns out
it wasn't a dream,
Sea water runneth
over the brim,
my cold stares
are justified,
If I say I like this
I lied,
But I ain't ashamed
to say I cried,
Nobody mourned
when my smile died,
Let me go
to the other side,
Let my feet
touch the summer tide,
I m stronger
than you think,
I know it will be
hard to breathe,
When I am
at this altitude,
But you learn whatever
little oxygen is there can be used,
Let me
reach higher,
I, myself
be my desire*

Something i felt was worth posting

I have found paradox that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt only more love- Mother Teresa

Screams of Tranquility

Let me hold u,
Melt in my arms,
Let the rain of your pain,
soak in my soil,
for the tug of emotions that we embroil,
its more like imbroglio,
But me,I m Incognito,
So I do things not so known even by me,
But your love it shines brightly*

My Anger's Requiem

Sometimes I just wanna cut my wrists
to see how much it bleeds,
how much blood a dying soul needs,
save a morsel everytime i eat,
so that i can save a hungry soul on the street,
I wanna make devil bite the dust,
coz i have got the number on the beast,
I wanna call God everytime He leaves,
me stranded in the night,
find words to talk to the demons
that never see the light,
and i wonder if hadn't conquered these demons
what would my life be like,
what if this mirror wasn't a monster
and i wouldnt leave these walls red,
but b4 that i gotta comfort all my people
who can't walk str8,
Like i said fake love, all hate,
try me and i shall demonstrate,
my mindstate is not improving,
and i shall murder everything moving,
i m on the edge so don't push me
I will snap, Its a choice so just choose it

Monster

paid dues,
make moves,
praying to Jesus,(read Hesus)
sippin on grey goose,
i hope i can join my people,
who lay loose,
loco 4 life, says who
can anybody fill my grey shoes?
nah, once in a day, the monster moves,
its take time to implement my monster views*

Unforgiven

When I meet you,
I feel like I just met myself,
But you shall not be like me,
I shall guide you, so that when time comes you won't need my help,W
When I speak to you,
sometimes i feel like you are saying my thoughts,
I hope you will not turn out like me,
coz i had to work really hard for everything I sought,
There's a storm in my mind,
But I feel like u r the one with a mangled home,
I wish I could take away all that you weather,
Instead I decide to leave this stranger alone,

I tell you to focus on the things that matter,
Coz sooner or later these friends will scatter,
You will pour your heart out and at the end of the day,
you think all night if they would find 2 words to say,
so you ask how do i know this,
I tell you coz I have been through all you go through,
I m a loner I hope u r not,
hang on now can't abort,
Inspire yourself, coz this life is to be won,
Eventhough you shall forever remain unforgiven*

A Cappella

my past was hard,
so is my present,
but if whats written shall be,
than my child shall reap
i know hells deep,
but i came back,
eventhough i aint learnt to swim yet,
life is a big mess,
but i dont count my regrets,
i m just glad to be blessed,
coz a father reprimands the son
he loves the most, but i aint the one,
i m just trying to be myself till the day is done*

My land

This is the place i learnt to walk,
What I m about to say is more than a thought,
I left, But its more than a sense of price it has brought,
Years of struggle and with what patience it was fought,
Can not be expressed so i aint even gonna try,
God's Country now thats bonafide,

Where the sun makes my eyes go blind,
Rainbow of emotions can not be confined,
Finds inspiration amongs the turmoil,
Clouds quence the thristy firm soil,
And also heals the empty souls,
Everyday is an epic, thats barely told,
where patience runs miles without a gold,
Heroes are forgotten, A movie is needed to rekindle his relevance,
He probably was heaven sent,
The smoke chokes and I breathe it all in,
Coz a billion people are there to pick me up if ever i m falling,
Amen, Now break bread,
Far and wide the seeds spread,
May my body be one with this soil when i m dead,
I gave my body if nothing else else is what i said,
May the blessings be countless, and the country live long,
No matter where i go i know where i belong,
21 gun salute and look how tall i stand,
this is my land*

Nothing can stop you

Don't let me stare into those eyez,
I might get lost b4 I realize,
There's so much to talk
But we never even sit, worse still never even walk,
We should go to a place that isn't so loud,
May be we should ride a cloud,
Melt our thoughts, fall down like snowflake,
This life i know we both hate,
Who else is there for me to talk to,
When you are with me, tell me who's there to stop you*

Painting myself in a corner

My heart is crazy,
It wanders for love in all the wrong places,
But i guess everybody has to go through these phases,
And this love has too many damn faces,
my heart beat races,
it settles for once, when I m next to her,
My heart doesn't learn, it needs a tutor,
finds itself broken, very so often,
A broken hearts stays broken even if it is joined so proper,
But may be its a broken heart that I need to write so painful,
Just so that you know, carrying a broken heart ain't cool*

Acquittal

" Thy shall not be afraid"
is what He said,
He knows me by my name,
Sacrifice my son for YOu, I shall not refrain,
I ain't Abraham,
But I know to wait after I say Amen,
Not on my knees, But I m humble,
I know the trouble,
The trouble You went through for me,
In this life I shall never be lonely,
1000 shall fall beside me,
something can touch me now thats less than likely,
I ain't washed in Holy water,
Then why am I so special, I m a mere mortal,
I have angels on both of my shoulders,
They fight for me, they are my guardian soilders,
Thank YOu, Today, I ma day older,
take this into account when You close my folder,
I carried a true heart,
since the day I began to breathe fast*

All you sought!

Let me stare into your eyez.
Let me read your mind,
be surprised by what I find,
Few feelings can't be defined,
So much to say, so few words,
Your eyez cover all that hurts,
" Go away fly" open the cage for the birds,
All they need is to be spurred,
Take a bucket empty the pain,
Life I know is barely sane,
Let me bleed for you, You know I love the odds,
May be this is the reason I came from abroad,
Your mind is murky but not the thought,
I m weak now but I shall try to give you, all you sought*

Endure

Paths of truth and struggle
are rough ridden,
I guess, what happened,
Or is about to happen is also written,
So all i have is faith,
I can't give up knowing its hard,
After the night comes the light,
That hope i carry in my heart,
Nothing lasts forever,
So all this strugglin is gonna end soon,
its only matter of time,
this air shall fill this vaccum,
my mother told me not to give up,
so everytime it gets hard i remember what she said,
thats enough reason for me to hold on,
I remember the verses i read,
I m ready for whatever
coz i have seen worse,
i came through and now i m stronger,
now all i have is the thirst,
to go further and success shall be in my grasp
I just wanna make my patience last*

In Vain

I gave u my heart,
but u gave it back ripped apart,
my feelings die a quick death,
it struggles to hold on to the last breath,
but the will to survive brings it back to life,
to live alone, i know what its like,
so leave me alone, thats what i m asking,
open the window, for the air, i m gasping*

The day in a life of...

I wake up, find things to do,
Got a few missed calls from don't know who
brush my teeth, find nothing to drink
I m running behind schedule b4 I could think,
time to begin another day,
gotta check the weather, hoping summer stays,
old socks see the laundry bag,
the towel sees my bare back,
i miss the bus now another 15 minutes,
shuffle a few songs for another nostalgic visit,
hop on a subway, and i realise i missed a meal,
so its back pocket to drill,
it has to be something cinnamon,
gotta pay my sweet tooth its dividend,
a bottle of iced tea to keep my throat wet,
a lot less modern but they call it the rocket,
carries me slowly to my stop,
and again theres a 5 minute walk,
boss is mad coz usually i m on time,
my coworkers ask me if i m fine,
i pretend to, i think they know it too,
few hours on and the back pain raises it ugly hood,
gotta eat now all i ate since morning was a donut,
i m getting mad knowing these customers r so dumb,
and hunger is making matters worse,
but before that time to scatter dust,
finally i get to eat, and 5 minutes to beat,
back to work againi m holding my back
few minutes of pain and i start ignoring that,
may be its sleep or working long hours the day before,
whats the reason i m not sure,
finally the rush is less,
time to relax,
i m getting calls but i can't talk,
5 to 7 missed calls thats what i got,
i gotta eat something b4 i leave,
i leave without nothing, you wouldnt believe,
12 is the time i get off, but i m there till 45,
we talk about girls, politics and what we like,
damn i missed my bus gotta run to catch the next one,
wait a moment i gotta put my words into action,
i hope to reach fast, or else i will have to walk home,
all this time music gives me company,
i listen to those songs which are worthy,
music keeps me moving, have u heard that saying?
it only stops at night when i m praying,
ask God a few things not for myself,
God give me heaven coz i m already in hell*

Traveller

it only takes one word to hope
but moneywise i m broke,
just so that you know,
take my hand and i would go,
take me to the promised land,
we don't always get what we plan,
but still we do what we can,
i m a bigger person,
out of the 19" screen i only follow the little cursor,
can't lose sight of my goals,
no matter how old,
everybody has a story untold,
but with times i mould,
sometimes i can't stand,
And i just killed the sand bag*

Never had a friend like me

So what do u do
when your best friend acts like,
everybody u had to go thru to be where u stand,
when only person that was on ur side,
stands on the other,
i can't explain the pain u suffer,
when their pain was yours,
and their struggle was yours,
you felt the every inch of pain they felt,
And you forgive coz they left,
you gave ur best,
just to see them happy,
the ones with whom
you were closer than family,
the times you remember so well,
now u only wanna forget,
so now i m ready whatever may come,
coz i took enough shots without a gun,
they never even tried to,
never cared, who i was,
or what i was made of,
all the sacrifices made,
that never saw the light,
more than a few times, my soul died,
but i resurrected it more than twice,
friends come and friends go,
but me, i stand alone,
choices are made,
you all made it clear,
so i m ready for death or insanity,
whatever i near,
they did what they had to do,
they never tried to understand me,
or be the friend we can be,
i came through everyttime they tried me,
i guess its not their fault to,
bcoz they never had a friend like me*

Shine

Plants oscillate,
winds hug them like they relate,
sun shines bright,
colors fade in the night,
but for the morning, new colors to display,
many shall taste the nectar today,
bring an end to everybodys dismay,
i hope the whole 12 stays this way....

untitled

If pain is love,
i own a house,
but if not i m a street dweller,
if love is blind
i m a bank teller...

Eternally Sleepless

Breaking norms,
Taking forms,
may He warn,
I m making storms,
finding ways they inform,
peace is a word that needs reform,
all through the struggle its keeps me strong,
so tell me where does weak belong?
i blink an eye and the week is gone,
is this time travel or am i just faster,
my strings don't snap, so i praise the master,
my eyes go wet even in laughter,
let me live now, i shall sleep after*

Rage

Rivers rage and the rapids flow,
Music calms me like a tragic soul,
thats something i got the fetish for,
let me get high let the magic soar,
it is, if it is atleast known,
now my soul is that little grown,
this is what keeps me grounded on cloud 9,
and i come back when escalators r fine,
almost nothing rhymes,
and i find inspiration in torrid times,
when my fake smile shows, all seems fine,
i discover a planet and say its mine*

Paint

Patience is not a virtue
When the world is pushing me into a vaccum
who do i run to.
my future is doomed,
i slit my wrists and paint the room,
i should paint the sky instead,
it should be enough for the litres i had,
And with both hands i bled,
Yes, its true what you read,
Like winter miss mewhen my green leaves are dead

Beautiful Struggle

This pain somewhat like
Bubbles in the water,they form they dissolve,
trapped in a bottle,they storm my resolve,
how soon they lost their form,
a few seconds since they were born,
their short life and i stand tall,
its the hard times,
not the happy that make us,
but me nobody gave me no favors,
I thank Lord for the good and the bad,
when i struggle to control my laughter,
and times when i wished i was dead,
Life is a leveler,
hellcruiser and heaven dweller,
if it wasnt for pain,
I wouldnt know what joy is,
If it wasnt for silence
i wouldnt know what noise is,
so i calm myself with music,
When i hear voices,
I tear through struggle
Like i prepare for trouble
I hope for the best
prepare for the worst,
And nothing could satisfy,
my thirstto achieve what i want,
nothing can deter me
i have been knee deep in dirt,
i know i deserve it.....

black

make me smile in a hurry
my vision is blurry
i came from the dark
let me go but first whats my part
we lived years apart
tear up my chest u will still find ur name on my heart*

rising tied

rising tide
finds wings to ride
little children run at ease
all reckless told to say cheese,
i die with a moan
my breath finds itself grown
my name is desire
my religion to aspire *

Time to die (Fade to black)

There's nothing left to live for,
There's nothing left to be done,
Nothing left to become
Only wait till I return,
Just me and this gun,
All the promises fulfilled,
All my peers killed,
None of my feelings concealed,
I outlasted all of them,
I blasted all of them,
I fought all my fears,
All my friends, none of them in tears,
I stood tall through all the struggle
I m good but all u saw was the trouble,
I made my parents proud,
Devils inside, So all my tenants loud,
I have shovel in my hand,
Its about time but I shall be done by then,
I m digging my own grave,
Yes I m goin, aint nobody gonna save,
Time to die,
I feel like Jesus Christ planning my own death,
Few breaths to go Infact only one left,
My tombstone shall read Born to prove everybody wrong,
But I shall love all those who stay strong,
In the event of my demise,
When light shall no longer penetrate these eyes,
Time to die
Mine's to-night
Fade to Black
till I come back*

Outcast

They say you are in impression,
of your parents,
if not them,
then your brother and sister,
they say you are influenced,
most by your mentor,
But I don't have none,
They say you do what your friends do,
I have many but almost all of them so called,
They say you want to be like your peers,
consiously or subconsiously,
Well, I m nothing like them,
me and my brother,
don't get along at all,
I m not like my friends,
always trying to fit in,
me and my friends
always compromising,
I hate my peers,
I suffer from no peer pressure,
theres almost a generation gap,
Its like i m not from the same era,
In school my teachers were pushing me,
making me learn what comes natural to me,
When I read the Bible few questions arise,
Do I have to go to church to find God,
And a few more I can't disclose
they say an artist has different views on the world
so is it so that i think different just bcoz i m an artist
i dont think so
so what do u label a person
who does not fit in the normal mould?
not llike everybody around him
you label him you call him
An outcast

Can You hear me?

Can You hear me?
Before I wasn’t but now I speak so clearly,
Everybody’s trying to push me now,
What should I do for You to be around,
But if You could only,
I m like the wind nothing can hold me,
My father told me,
God’s favorites have a hard time,
After all I have been through I can’t say I m all fine,
You said God “ I shall never forsake thee
I have engraved thee on the palms of my hand”
So where are You God coz alone I stand,
Why have You forsaken me? Coz I ran
Through hell without a friend,
I m going crazy in my mind,
Tell me I demand when will it be my time,
A true heart, shouldn’t that account for something,
My life has been like now or nothing,
I control myself but so much pain,
I feel like me against everybody once again,
I just wanna keep my sanity,
Everybody’s tryin to get at me,
Or is it so that You are mad at me,
If that’s the case give me that moment of clarity,
Do I have to go against everybody to be free,
Or is it me just trying to be me,
Even Moses had to go against his own kind,
Do I have to go through this only to know what I find,
The other side will be much better,
This aint blasphemy, This is a letter,
Just a few questions I had to ask You , God,
You already know where this is coming from*

dont judge me

dont judge the blog on my last post
like you dont judge a book by the cover

So near yet so far

So near yet so far,
So close to my heart,
Yet we shall be apart,
So much love but so much hate,
So unlike yet we relate,
So clear yet so blurry,
Only someone so close can hurt me!
Talk too much but not enough,
Everything I do is not enough,
You can touch me but can't feel me,
I lost you so nearly,
I thought you would know me but if only,
So together yet so lonely,
Miss those things so much what we own,
But only when they are gone,
So near yet so far,
Your name etched on my heart,
But on the broken part,
I know life is hard,
But with you it will be easy,
All you can do is wish me,
You are next to me but not with me,
So did you miss me?
Never thought you would leave so easily,
I know you are gone but in someway you always with me,
The same way as I m with you,
What else can I give you?
Miss you are the words I won't try to misuse,
It was always clear from the start,
So near yet so far*

Personal Jesus

Yes I wake up
stare at the ceiling
I m proud at hell,
I love that feeling,
Everybody around is plotting,
But I m guilty of sinning,
I m ready to testify,
Able and willing,
Dear Lord guide me,
So that I may know against whom I m leaning,
Tell me so that I may know,
When I m really losing myself when I m winning,
This world made me what I m,
My thoughts need a cleaning,
Forgive me for all the times,
I forgot to pray just after evening,
Sorry Lord If I lost my path,
I know better ways I should be leading,
But all this time when I was away,
Devil was the one I was greeting,
I have changed for better,
Help me give this life a meaning,
I have had my share of the tears,
for the times I was grinning,
I guess you only get what you give,
Yes I m not that unseeing,
What I always wanted is
You to be my personal Jesus*

Str8 Jacket

Let me free,
Let me go,
Everybody's pushing,
Y'all forgot what I could have been,
You made my strong will power weak,
You made my brain sick,
I m choking give me some air,
So that I can breathe, Can I have my share?
I know life's unfair,
I feel like running away, But I will run where,
What I feel is what only some share
Where I m from freedom is privilege,
Don't push me I m already at the edge,
You can have me just loosen these straps,
I m ok with the jacket just the way this belt wraps,
You messed up your life now you are out for mine,
What have you achieved? Let me rewind,
No time for ifs and buts,
Simple and plain you hate my guts,
Let me do what I want to
Bcoz eventually when I snap don't tell me I didn't warn you,
My life is like I m trapped in a str8 jacket,
You can have it,
Since my birth odds were against me,
If you had my life, You would be just as crazy,
Everybody wants to fight me,
It shall be a triple threat more than likely,
Its me against myself, against the world,
And someone within the herd,
I warned you not to start this,
Yeah I m in a str8 jacket,
But what you don't know is I m also an escape artist*

Enemy Within

No, Its not
My parents pushing me, in my teens,
No, not my sibling I need to outshine,
Not my cousins, forgetting what I taught,
Not my peers, whom I need to outrhyme,
No, Not my friends backstabbing at will,
No, Not my teachers in the school,
Making me learn what I barely understand,
No, not the priest
trying to mould me,
No, not the deafening wind,
when I m lonely,
No, not the devil,
Always tempting me,
Not the thunder,
when I sleep shivering,
No, not the empty glasses,
making my liver sick,
No, not when I m gasping for air,
not knowing the river's deep,
So the question is who then?
is my nemesis,
I say, Me and this mirror,
The shattered glass and my soft flesh,
I, myself, my own worst enemy,
I can fight the world,
But how can I defeat myself,
I m losing either way
Its the enemy within*

Sometime Part II

Spend some time with you,
Get to know you better,
So when I m gone say that I missed you,
No, but not forever,
We will meet again, I m sure,
The reason, all the things we've been together,
Only to know feelings were pure,
And all the disagreements didn't really matter,
Where will we stand when the years passed by,
Say we've remained friends and improved,
So do you remember when did I speak my last lie,
Now I spit out all the feelings I chewed,
You stayed quiet, never displayed any signs and I asked why?
You told me not to talk like this and say that I was rude,
Exact same words I heard last night,
I shouldered your pain, You shouldered mine,
Gave me courage to carry on,
Read your voice and knew then and then something wasn't right,
Made me understand what went wrong,
So who wasted time time when we talked all night,
Same place we stand when everything is said and done,
Will we talk so often?
We will reminise on all the fun,
Words won't be enough to say what you mean to me,
There's mayhem in my mind,
But there's a calmness you bring to me,
You are busy in your life,
I m busy in mine,
I Guess we will value each other when we are gone,
Coz this friendship we redefine,
You can find me you know where I m from,
May be then we will spend some time.

One

All I need,
is one pen,
One pad, to write,
One friend, I can trust,
One God,
One Prayer,
That is answered,
One tear,
Someone can wipe,
One smile,
I could give this life for,
One sun,
To shine my way,
One lie,
I can take it as truth,
One house,
Better yet,
One room,
But four walls,
All I need is
Someone,
I can call my own,
One eye,
To see the truth,
One hope,
I will make it to heaven,
One son,
To make me proud,
One dollar,
So that I ain't broke,
One year,
To get my life together,
One wish,
That is granted,
One God Bless,
Before I m dead,
One chance,
If I can make this worth it,
One more chance,
To do it again*

What 2 say!

What 2 say!
What to write
Words are so useless,
No help even from a newsflash,
I just keep everything inside,
All you need is insight,
to know a person,
Life is like I m moving the mouseBut not the cursor,
Its a system failure, may be,
So all this coz I m crazy,
Eyes never lie,
And ontop of that they never try,
Can't you read my eyes,
Sun is blocked by the high rise,
You can see only if you want to,
But heart break is something
I have been prone to,
Incognito and unknown too,
Looking back now look what we have grown to,
Do I need to say,
Anything today,
Actions speak louder than words,
No matter how do they come,
Some people are prouder than some,
No I don't believe everything you told me,
I m the wind nothing can hold me,
Till 6 feets fold me,
Calenders change so will we,
May be then I wouldn't speak so freely,
Love is not verbal,
Use of figures of speech is not a hurdle,
But then we will come full circle
Its back to
What to say*

Is gone

when all your love is gone,
what will I do with this life all alone,
Waiting, Hoping that you would come,
So if the ego ever lands make a U-turn,
Nobody knows which way you are bound,
You never told always so proud,
May be you will find a place to stop,
Go away now don't stop,
Don't turn back you are making it hard,
Go now I will be ok with a broken heart,
You never even tried to know me,
Acting like you are the only one lonely,
When all your love is gone,
The emptiness will be filled with pain,
For once this heart will be chained,
No longer will be torn,
When everything will be said n done,
You wouldn't be there its hard enough knowing,
I have tried everything to keep you from going,
Nothing seems to work,
But now the more I try the more it hurts,
I guess You have to leave to truly understand me,
What we shared was special and what it could have been,
I guess regrets will bring you down,
And I can't sleep over these feelings I own,
I hope you know the saying,
You don't know what you have till its gone,
And all this,
When your love is gone*

My side of the story

this is the story of my life,
it starts with
u will know me when I die,
this is what i felt inside,
you dont really know me,
but this is my side of the story,
nobody knows this is untold,
so much pain and I swallow it all,
waited so long but you never called,
I was mistaken you are not what I thought,
You never cared or so i thought,
You saw me crying but never the tears,
But I wiped them, now the vision is clear,
All you ever cared about was yourself,
Called but only when you want help,
Lets not get into all that,
You hurt my feelings you know what you did,
Even writing about this feels so stupid,
In this rollercoaster life I thought I would hold on to you,
I was there but you just did what you had to do,
You are no different from all my so called friends,
I judged you wrong so what next,
My life is a story half untold,
Half misconstrued,
Only ugly duckling in the brood,
Always misunderstood,
Bring the pain I m ready for more,
I want some more,
The broken heart I carry, You just broke a lil more,
But this is not something you should know,
I will keep giving no matter what you do,
Friendship was one sided something I dont have to prove,
You are smart enough to know better,
There have been many like you that I have weathered,
Someday you will understand
Where I stand, What I m
But till then
Let it be*

still writing

i dont post but it doesnt mean i aint writing nothing
i m just waiting for the right time to post

Cherish the pain

This is world is like a prison
I was dead, now I have risen,
What I want to do is just the opposite to
What they want me to do, I wanna break free,
Only if I could count more than three,
The chains of compulsion are holding me,
They try and can’t stop molding me,
I want to be myself, only if this anger could help,
My fist turns red, the wall is still left to,
Pain is mandatory, anger is what helps,
Staring down the sun, it feels the scorching heat,
While I let off a little steam,
This is like a bad dream, that I see everyday,
May be someday I shall run away,
Morning is dark like the night passed by,
May be someday I will get the answers to questions why,
Rage is nirvana for the youth,
Swallow the false, spit the truth,
Coz nothing is what it seems,
In the laughter the conscience screams,
Crying out loud when they told you to maintain silence,
In your every smile there is a little violence,
Swallow the fear, fight till the end,
End is near so better learn to defend

The city is mine Pt 1

This is about the place I was born,
This is about the place I was raised,
This is what I represent what I own,
Better yet the city is mine,
Yes I hate the heat and the pollution,
But its all fine,
Coz after all, the city is mine,
Like I said,
Where all my memories are laid,
Every street knows me, I know,
Where I ain’t afraid to go,
I hope to see the city in time,
Yes that city is mine,
The place where myself I find,
That city is mine,
Laid back attitude but gotta make my city proud,
I would never let my city down,
Coz the city is mine,
I belong to the city,
The city belongs to me,
City is the place where my roots are,
But I left too far, coz I find the fruits sour,
That’s where my heart is, now read between the line,
And the line goes, the city is mine,
From A.C to T.O journey wasn’t easy,
But I realize quickly, there ain’t another city like mine
And yes again, the city is mine

Me & I

This is for you, I
When I speak to you,
You make me forget my pain,
Makes me believe I should stay the same,
Makes me wanna forgive all the backstabbing friends I had,
You are unlike all the friends I had,
There’s something about you,
That makes me wanna hate you,
The very next second love you,
I wished I had found you earlier,
To be my friend you are worthy of,
I have just met you
But I feel like I have known you since years,
And I m prone to fears,
Therefore I m scared to lose you,
But I have also told you,
That I have been to hell and I have cruised through,
Its not that I don’t have friends
Its just that I don’t have friends like you,
I just want you to know we are forever friends,
But If this ever ends it will be heaven sent,
No matter what may come,
I will always be there for you,
Through your ups and downs support you,
When you are feeling down you know whom to call to,
I just hope you feel the same way,
And our friendship ain’t name sake,
I can tell you anything pour my heart out,
I can make through the struggle it ain’t hard now,
Apparently,
Talking to you is like therapy,
To get things off my chest,
I know time will try n test,
Our friendship but I will be ready for whatever,
With time we got better,
So except you who can I trust?
In this cold world,
That’s the reason; to me you are more than a girl,
More than a friend,
And just so that you know I won’t try to pretend,
Its not that I didn’t have topic to write
I just wanted to show you what you mean to me*

Life n Rhymes of Incognito

This is the life of Incognito
These are the rhymes of Incognito
These are the times
This is what I call
Life n Rhymes of Incognito*

School of the hardknocks

Welcome to hard times
I made it through,
But sometimes my heart cries,
I know it was worth it,
Even though I paid an odd price,
Never thought I would be here,
But I proved, me wrong,
It took me a while,
I know now where I belong,
I graduated from the school of the hardknocks,
It wasn’t easy,
Making decisions on a hard spot,
I soaked in the mistakes,
Ran the race but always a dark horse,
I know something was guiding me,
A power, a force,
Now I make up every second,
For the hours I lost,
Working my way through,
I would never count my regrets,
Keep doing what I m doin,
Never sit back knowing I m blessed,
I graduated from the school of the hardknocks,
My teachers said I would amount to nothing,
They were like I would be doing some odd job,
I made them eat their words,
Like they were starving and hungry,
During winter the birds fly south,
I flew west, left my country,
I m that diamond in the dirt,
Still to be shaped,
I m making my own path, there is nobody I have tried aped,
So many battles won,
I fought my way through pain,
I made through the obstacles,
I was born to go against the grain,
I met that monster in the mirror
Befriended him, took up the challenge
And made it through the rain*

Ill Side(Re-Instate)

Be careful what you ask for,
You just might get it,
You just might regret it,
Live in the present, you might be the next kid,
Assume nothing, facts live,
Artists die, tracks live,
Eyes spit truth, words deceive,
Gotta give b4 u receive,
Doesn’t always hold true,
Its been years since I have known you,
But you are just starting to know me
It’s the life I chose
Rather than life that chose me,
Life’s a bitch, so many times about if only,
So spiritual but thoughts unholy,
Me against myself like many b4 me,
Act like I owe them, not me,
Damn the world I ride lonely,
Get out of my face, you phony,
Summer times unforgettable,
Some time regrettable,
Every coin has too sides,
But me I m 2 nice,
When I said that I speak 2 lies,
Fake love true hate,
Got a heart that everybody loves 2 break,
Can’t walk proper but loves 2 skate,
Real ones relate,
Missed me,
I follow my instinct,
Relation of a dog and a biscuit,
Nobody knows when my heart bleeds,
Nobody understands my needs,
May be bcoz I have always been Incognito
Voice of the young people,
Now who’s addressing the issues that need 2*

Still Ride(Mind Re-State)

RealReal recognize real
Rests of them look familiar
But I also know most of them chameleon,
God’s favorites have a hard time,
Dear Lord You could have told before mine,
So many times life’s about mind over matter,
And people who matter won’t mind,
You sold your soul to the devil,
To the rhymes I have sold mine,
People who can’t hold pen become writers,
People who don’t know how to spend time become rhymers,
This is the way I master these one liners,
So many pluses make you overlook the minus,
To your mom you are a super star,
You are 22 and still you don’t know who you are,
Like the predators of Serengeti,
My parents dare me,
To be sober but only at times,
Coz our relations are healthy,
And I have learnt plenty,
I graduated from School of the Hardknocks,
I spit my hard thoughts,
Am I just a demon,
Living just to spread my semen,
Or there is a bigger purpose,
Or does thinking like this seem worthless,
I m making you think none the less,
I.N.D.I.A
Individuals Never Die Influences Alive,
Only strong individuals survive,
If I m good I would die young,
But if I m not I will outlive everyone,
My finger prints on the walk of fame,
Miss me when I m 6 feet deep with my 6 feet frame
When the lil chick picks grains,
God watches it, for the circling eagle,
And when I m riding purple and silver,
So I thank you Lord every time You were watching my back,
There was a bigger purpose, But I m nervous
To face God, every time I attend church service

School of the hardknocks

i graduated from the school of teh hardknocks

KillPride(Mind State)

I believe in Bible not the Reverend,
Coz I don’t know what’s about to happen,
So don’t push me when I hold this weapon,
There’s a fine line between respect and disregard,
Let me perfect my part,
Dear Lord, I’ve been walking since so long,
All this time I ve been alone,
Can’t figure out was I living or existing,
I feel indebted every time I m breathing,
I m tryin 2 find myself,
I open my eyes and few years passed,
Unanswered questions left,
Hoping now Lord answers fast,
But I doubt coz we ain’t talked since long,
And now I m sorry,
I m selfish like every mirror I watch,
Slow at heart, quicker at thought,
All the pain I stuffed inside,
Is bursting out the words are weapons I recite,
Passion I ignite,
But so often in my mind,
I m tired of struggling I hate it,
But I know I will wake up one day and realize I made it,
Why is love a word overrated?
Why is one other four lettered word so overstated?
What does it take us to rise above it,
Why did it take me to leave my country
To realize how much I love it,
I know what you gonna stay
If I love my country why did I leave it
When I say my heart is still there believe it
If my life I chose rather than life that chose me
I m schizophrenic you can’t know me
I rose from the ashes of the dreams u ruined
But theres no feud,
This is not it mind state continued…..

Blood Brotherz

You had the same kind of childhood I did,
Spent most of the time playing cricket on the street,
Shared days and our ways,
Labeled good for nothing but sometimes found praise,
I spent more time with you than my brother,
Yes, we are friends but you know what I take it further,
So its only fair to say you are my blood brother

We shared the same thought,
We have been feuding but our friendship is strong as a rock,
We shared differences coz we all are a lil different,
Few lost way coz we all love our freedom,
Achieved nothing but we are proud as hell,
Many haters came and you can touch and tell,
Yes I am first to leave
But you know I will be the first to give,
We’ll do anything for each other
Coz after all you are my blood brother,

I promise you all I will return for sure,
You know me I keep my word
I want you all to be well settled,
I m cruising hell, still unrattled,
I know real men don’t cry but I m missin you
I know you will die for my name,
Any disrespect to me and you will drive em insane,
And you know I would do the samething too
So there’s none other
But you are my blood brother

Reminisce on the time spent so sweet,
Watched each other grow, Summer and December,
I know you remember
I taught you many things, And vice versa,
I call you once a week say “ nice to hear ya”
I hope to bring back those days n chill again,
Its like we share the same blood line,
I know u feel the pain I m under,
Me and my blood brother

Happy Now II

I have forgiven you but thers nothing you have done,
Time is a teacher, is what they say,
I have turned away but I don’t know what it takes
To let something go away,
I hope you are happy now,
That I don’t follow you around,
That I don’t do those crazy things anymore,
But I m looking back while I m leaving,
Wishing you best but this feeling is unforgiving
Hope you find one you need,
A confidant, a friend indeed,
Life is small I hope you measure it well,
Many other things I did wanna tell,
But not now I hope you know why,
One thing I wanna tell you is be happy always,
Happy with whoever u choose,
Don’t wanna warn you against the evils of the day,
You know the truth what can I say,
With your so called friends I hope u r happy now,
Guilty not for what I have done,
I hope you are happy now,
Wanna say these words but can’t be now,
I m leaving but I will not forget you somehow,
After all this feeding your pride
Are you happy now?

So many...

Never ever had a best friend, Never stayed with anyone to call one so,
Always had friends who left me before I told em to go
Always were around when they needed me,
I was always there but they decided instead,
I know I wasn’t always true,
But I guess I did what I had to do,
Always counted on myself when the time wasn’t right,
They had my back but always alone I fight,
I keep my trust on the one looking from the top,
Obstacles stop me but I will not stop,
Walking alone I do my thing,
I m always open with two arms like swing,
Though I was in love pure,
Only to find out I wasn’t so sure,
Felt like I would get lost in those eyes,
I know I feared God but I always was devil in disguise,
Never won a gold but never settled for a silver either,
I m running a marathon but I can’t take a breather,
Just when you thought I wouldn’t do something like this,
I just throw away my reputation and do something crazy insane,
Always gave y best but I feel like losing without even tryin,
I know that’s what cowards do but I can’t stop cryin,
I know I’ll find my way destiny is in my hands
And there’s not denying

The City is mine

i m a concrete eagle,
flying thru smoke tryin to see things equal,
I tell u what i see thru eyez of mine,
often overlooked the cries of the child,
I tell u the truth, eyez of the wild,
So much diversity tries to divide,
rich and poor, caste and the creed,
i see the house and the hate it breeds,
minds are crazed and sick,
i m often amazed at this,
Just then God raised the heat,
Sweatin, I m tryin to increase my liquid intake,
I ve loved the city since i was in 6th grade,
I love the city still no mistake,
The city lights shinning on my face,
Ahmedabad City is the place,
So hypocritical, Got me irrate,
I got links so I m just throwing my weight,
I m just tryin to know my hate,
I m riding too fast I need to slow my pace,
I need to floss, I need to show my best,
City's moving on, following path of the west,
Few figures coming up, Start the unrest,
As a citizen, my part is put to test,
I feel the city choking every evening,
You can't use dictionary to match every meaning,
The smoke makes hard to even see 6 feet and,
I m just tryin to come to terms with joy of defeating,
Every few months a new kind of greeting,
Broken dreams found wings I m leaving,
But still far away i can feel the city breathing,
Even when its asleep,
Got the youth caught up in the grip,
the vices, keep the city in one piece,
Not asking for more but more than one wish,
City gifted me a style to run with,
And an attitude u wud like too,
There's more to the city than a business and a design school,
I didn't use a ruler for a line I drew,
Parents pushin refusin teens,
lil past notoriety,
Middle class authority,
Money with cooperative tellers,
End up makin 'em high city dwellers,
The City state dry,
Some of the high grade lies,
End of October and something illuminates the sky,
Come January and again its colorful and bright,
city doesn't sleep 9 days a year,
I m talkin aloud there are 9 ways to hear,
trouble fiends suicide,
Get double wings n fly,
to the promised land, Was this planned,
No notice sent,
The retail boom,
My homies send the details soon,
6 weakened teens spend time at 6 silver screens,
And 6 years later 6 livers weak,
Expanding like exponential,
Still below full potential,
Supplying every essential,
Progressing in sections, Demandin attention,
Migrants attraction, Never liked fractions,
Never visited the ashram,
But i got more than art lovers in my arsenal,
I 've got business people and even fanatics,
City is known for more than aesthetics,
From hustle bustle of the old city, where peoples bargaining,
To far west where new youth is waiting,
Many winds have carved the stone,
Charity of many things starts at home,
Same place where hearts have grown,
Same face that the skies have known,
Vacant is where lies the throne,
I've waited for this b4 i was 9,
I claim the city, The City is mine

Youth of my nation

Youth of my nation

I m talking to you

I can fill ur shoes

Any given day I can walk in 2 u,

I know u don’t disgrace ur country

But unknowingly what if u do,

I just wanted to do

All the things I wanted to do,

There are a few things I pointed 2 u,

I m the son of the same soil that anointed u,

I wanted to make it big I was disappointed too,

But I dug deep inside 2 find a way,

To fight the pain,

Like I said,

This is addressed to the youth of the nation,

Let’s identify the truth we are facing,

To and fro, the mood keeps changing,

The best of the talent is lost to an alien,

The rest of the talent blamed for the failing,

Then people like you and me do the detailing,

Before u start a storm look where you sailing,

Think a lil, Youth of my nation

I m just tryin to start a conversation,

We curse and hate the country we are born,

The country we are from,

We move far away and realize where we went wrong,

Gather our regrets and put em in a song,

But don’t worry we are strong,

I just hurried into a thought,

Truth is something we have sought,

Always so let’s just stop,

So can we have a lil moment of clarity?

Can we have a lil parity,

Work towards prosperity,

But its so sad that the,

Youth of my nation

Don’t have any patience

Youth of my nation

continued........

Never Friends

we were never friends,
We are just somebody who went college together,
we just spend 3 best years together,
we shared many a laughs,
some cherished, some left unnoticed,
I have nothing on you,
I learnt a lot from you,
You were a lot smarter,
I called you on your b'day every year after,
I waited for the call that never came,
What if I miss you and the times we spent together,
But we were never friends and whatever,
You felt like I had crush on you or something,
I was just tryin to be a good friend and nothing,
I thought you knew me better,
Considering how many times I called you after class,
No questions asked,
I have had many a back stabbing friends
So these words are the aftermath,
I thought you were different, somebody who understands me,
But u didnt nor my friends did,
I used to bunk college and I made u bunk too,
I watched your back and see that you come through
I was always there you left with ends open,
somethings are better left unspoken,
I don't know why am I feeling so bad still?
About somebody I was never friends with*

What 2 write!

I don't know what 2 write,
About the flow I recite,
Or what I decide,
About the struggle I've been through,
Or the troubles I sent you,
Honestly, I don't know what to write,
I am emotionally exhausted,
What more I wanted,
Next verse I write when the feelings comeback,
You know how the line goes, Been there done that,

I don't know what 2 write,
All the friends I miss,
Or should it be about the girl I kissed,
Regrets I have, Or the battles I have braved,
Roads are grave, but more I have paved,
Comebacks I have staged,
Or the rapids I have raged,
The demons I have caged,
Or the hate inside me,
I wasn't born with a pen but I m sure to die with,
But guess what? I don't know what 2 write,
Next verse when I decide,
Killpride or 4186 I ride,
The country I represent,
Or the worries I have 2 end,
No words for those who question me,
Coz I have learnt what patience is,
I m writing my life away,
Its gonna be my time oneday,
My words will live on even if I die,
Now that I know what 2 write*

What to write

What 2 write!
thinking................

Talk to me

Sit beside, And talk to me.
I know we are strangers now,
But time will pass and we'll be friends,
Speak your mind, But also speak from your heart,
Talk to me,
Tell me your miseries,
Tell me about your regrets,
I promise I will tell nobody,
You can trust me, I will keep the secret,
I know life is hard But I also know we can start,
I have got my own battles to fight,
But over time I will make your battles mine,
Talk to me.
Talk to me so that I can share your pain,
Who broke your heart, I know how it feels
Coz I ve got a broken one too,
Open up to me, And I will open up to you,
Don't sit alone,
coz I havent found someone I can talk to either,
And I will watch you back When you are asleep,
And I will keep all the promises I give,
Sit beside me,
Talk to me*

Trouble is...

Gratitude is burden,
Revenge is pleasure,
Mayhem is music,
Chaos a delight,
So I hold the gun next to me when i write,
Death is incarnation,
You realise this,
And it was only lie you were making,
When more time you start wasting,
Your heart keeps pacing,
but it was really time you were wasting,
thats was the trouble is.

Never did drugs Never will do,
Rest assured coz I will never leave you,
Rest assured coz you will never be who?
somebody else, whenevery thing seems well,
And everysecond seems hell,
In our mind, the satan he dwells,

Fear the beholder,
Coz you just don't know him,
Mirror in front of you,
isn't as clear as you wish 2,
But again meanings are relative,
What I meant was not what I meant,
So see you when I reach the pinnacle,
Cherish the pain, I say it again,

Like many else I will be nobody
till somebody kills me,
so let me do it my self,
No, Not kill myself
Make my self somebody
But the trouble is...

2 Hell n Back(Hellcruiser for Life Part II)

Momma's boy, Younger but stronger,
You wonder, You ponder,
I came up, You wander,
Seen summers, thru saunas,
Won thunders, Been under,
Not a drummer but on the vocals,
Lost way not focus,
I m a Sagi, been friends with Taurus,
Did what you never thought I would, And repeat,
Tasted success and defeat,
Been through the battles, Many stars learned,
I ride till the wheels fell off,
Hellcruiser, Answered the hell's call,
Had the devil biting dust,
I rose but I was dying first,
I ain't lying much, but I m eying some,
Never afraid to try it, once,
Some still question my ways,
Its like been questioned by the nation I saved,
Far away I went from the place I was raised,
Never in my life that place I disgrace,
Me chillin', reminise on the days,
Never change my mind, guarantee I say,
Calm waters run deep I say,
Call my friends Once a week I may,
Breathe like plants, yes I did my thing,
Leaves yellow in fall, Green in spring,
Black Sheep, Yes, I did my bid,
I went the other side, Grass be green I wished,
But no matter what, its mind over matter,
And those who matter, won't mind,
She loves me, Shes love me lot,
But may be worst she's got,
So alone but I watch these people come,
And I watched these people go,
Am I the culprit or am I the victim,
Forget my pain and the joy that I did bring,
Life often is the same,
Now I ask can you relate?
Its hell before heaven,
Ten before Eleven,
So you gotta cruise hell before you get a piece of the sky,
And this you can't defy,
But for me its hellcruiser for life!!*

What up Ni!

What up Ni How are you?
11 months later Yes I m still thinking of you
I wished I would have been able to meet you before I left,
And you know my friends they are of little but no help,
So howz life goin', How are your so called friends doin',
I m here alone, But you know that I m improvin',
I bet you have made new friends,
Are you arrogant as usual, And you know what then,
Yes, I m missin you,
I wished I would have left you some songs to listen to,
I hope I can call you sometime,
But to be honest, I did try one time,
Can't forget your smiling face,
But I regret all the time I waste,
Can't forget all the time we spent,
I m writing my life away, I hope now you understand,
Me and what my love really meant,
Now its too late I can't come back anyways,
This is my promise that I will return,
To see you and see what you have become,
To see whether you are beautiful than ever,
Which sure You will be, but have you become that for better?
And see if you remember the face?
The face that you drove crazy,
And if you still remember killpride and 4186,
It is difficult for me yes I hate this,
I bet I would have changed then,
I guess I shouldn't say that,
I 've got lot to say may be later now,
Thats it for now, I will go, time is major now,
What up Ni!

Born and raised in...

Born and raised where the dogs chase, Full of respect and all praise,
My heart is where my home is now and for always, I remember all days fine,
I m in pain but I carry a colgate smile,
Wanna change my life, Won't change mine, Those days fine, Ghost days like,
Sun rises in the east but ways i shine, Another day later, postage arrives,
Can't sayI have no regrets, It was a dream and i woke up in cold sweat,
Can't give up my mother told that, I would have shunned but i learnt to tolerate,
wasn't born with a silver spoon but i ate off gold plate,
I learnt to iron the wrinkles coz i didn't get clothes folded,
Lot of souls lost where the crossroads end,
But crossroads the place where lost souls end,
Lot of friends with empty bottles and ashtrays filled, Wasting time, many a beautiful faces killed, Youth of my nation are in a state of mind that can't be explained,
We prayed everytime it rained and everytime it didn't rain,
But future is better for the children, Coz many went 2 be adored by the millions,
And this is the path we sought so dearly, And many made a path to follow, so clearly,
Far away from the milky way the word spread, You couldn't be from the third they said,
World takes notice, Now everybody loves the underdog,
And under what circumstances we came up only we know,
Neighbours Envy, Even owners envy, Got talents plenty but the errands ran this,
West, that where my parents sent me, I do this for my culture, if u know what i mean,
I do this for Saffron White and Green
It is more than a song, the song that we sing two times a year,
But does this mean we are concerned about our country just two times a year,
So does this mean two times the love, What do they call it, You find the word,
So every morning in schools across the nation the song is heard,
But its due time we learn, I want to say a lot , but i end up saying something,
Go ahead write us off, Don't say nothing,
And don't judge me coz u don't know what it is to be,
Born and raised in India.