Hellcruiser Blues

What If

2012-01-22T23:47:00.005+05:30

If I knew my life’s purpose
what’s in store?
what if is the question
can I ask one more?
If I knew what I was meant to do
I wouldnt waste time
If all I could fit everything I want to say
In one line
I wouldn’t waste so much paper
save one tree at a time.
what if I wasn’t born in India
And I wasn’t color blind
I was racist
eradicating natives,
What if I could read people’s mind
know their true motives
What if Gandhi was a soilder
Rather than a messenger of peace
what if british raj continued
we trying find the missing piece,
What if success
wasn’t measured by money in your bank
or the car you drove,
but by how much love
to and fro,
What if I never came to Canada
and the struggle added
nothing to my character,
what if I had more business sense
than talent,
If I had one wish
and I could save the planet,
what if i could tell
everybody
I have a nasal piercing
What if we can’t let
emotions overwhelm us
and hold the tears in,
if I wasn’t a needle in a haystack,
if there was a rewind button
on my life’s playback,
But no regrets
so how could I say that,
what if love was more
than a four letter word
if it really meant
something in today’s world
not mere limited to poems
writings on the greetings
what if you could back
it matching feelings
what if I couldn’t write this
just keep it in my mind
and wouldn’t be labeld selfish*

Welcome aboard

2012-01-22T23:47:00.002+05:30

These verses are like a journey
And I am your tour guide
Show you around the city
Talk about the inner beauty
Glimpses into the history
Only stop for refreshments
No complaints
Consider yourself blessed
Next one is a steep one
Hold on to the handle bars
No tips at the end
Wish you could come again
Let me if you can’t hear me at the back
I can scream louder
I hope you are carrying the map
There is washroom on the bus
So hold on to that
Keep you arm inside
Or you might blame it on the guide
Show all the places famous
And some others just nameless
The impact of it on the culture
And why do we nurture
This is the city square
Watch your wallet
Yes, they do dare
This road leads to somewhere
I don’t really know,
Nobody really goes there
But I will take you there
I aint trying to be modest
Where else would you find
A guide this honest
Hand in Hand
I shall lead
Help others among us
Who need
Here’s a little souvenir
You can keep that
but before you do that
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Journey

2012-01-22T23:45:00.003+05:30

Life is not a destination
Its a journey
Can I signup for the monthly pass?

If I ever fall

2012-01-22T23:45:00.000+05:30

if I ever fall short
take it in my stride
start again
like single player
games
coz I know
there is only one way up
like ski lifts
but you can fall
like avalanche
I am just trying to
be logical
and anything is possible
but success is psychological

God is...

2012-01-22T23:43:00.002+05:30

I see the mosaic leaves
And I think,
God has to be an artist,
When its autumn,

Then I am feeling rock bottom,
And I listen to the silence,
With the waves,
And at times when the birds chirp,
And I think God has to be a DJ

Then I see all the Violence,
And makes me think otherwise,
But my God doesn’t sleep

I pray every night,
Read the word,
And see the next day,
How He works,
Makes me think
God has to be a magician,

The volcano, the floods
The famine,
And then you see His fury,
Reminding of our duty,
God has to be a teacher

Then a great man said,
God is Truth
And so I seek,
The future looks bleak,
The grey clouds gather,
But on second look I find,
They come with a silver lining
And I get on my knees,
This life is redefined then.
God has to be the weatherman.

I see a mother and her son,
I see unconditional love,
And I now know for sure,
God is love,

I travel seven seas,
To find Him
And now I find,
God is inside me
Who am I to say?
Who God is…?

Half Poem

2012-01-22T23:19:00.002+05:30

The angels can't have it,
This sentiment is human,
What good are wings for?
If you can't feel the wind on your face,
This feeling isn't democratic,
But can make it to every king's wish list,
Every day dreamer wishes for,
A realist's reprise,
The line that is pushed,
For the wishes to bloom,
Turn back the arms of the clock,
Who could have known the joy in learning,
Stand back and read,
Behold! the jealously of mediocre minds,
For this art is a dream
Dare not awake the demons.

Fallen

2012-01-22T23:16:00.005+05:30

The tears have melted
And returned to the streams
And streams into falls.

For those

2012-01-22T23:16:00.002+05:30

For those willing to sacrifice,
I am nice,
But, others pay the price.

For those who are wise,
Take my advice,
Identify the truth from the lies.

For those who put faith in Christ,
The words will suffice,
But, others throw the dice.

For those willing to rise,
Break the ice,
But, others choose your vice.

For those with dreams in their eyes,
Play your cards right,
But, others throw high fives.

For those willing to sacrifice,
My patience has a price,
But, others say I am nice.

Good Night

2012-01-22T23:15:00.006+05:30

There are dreams
And there are dreams,
That fuel the passion,
The rest all are nightmares.

Worth More

2012-01-22T23:15:00.003+05:30

Tell me what are these words worth
Is it just me?
That these daffodils look so good,
Or is it Wordsworth?

Freedom

2012-01-22T23:15:00.000+05:30

With every line written,
All I have given,
These rhymes nothing more,
Than self made prison,
Trying to avoid tunnel vision,
The pen that left crimson,
The petals of emotion,
The decals of wisdom,
Rip apart
Like faint heart,
This aint art.
This dirt on my shoes,
Aint wishing for me to loose,
Every step taken,
The pages left brazen,
True rhymes feel like a haven,
For the endangered species of the kingdom,
I aint talking about reading between the lines,
I am talking about freedom.

I never said it would be easy to love me

2012-01-22T23:14:00.002+05:30

There's so much on my mind,
Couldn't say all that in a line,
Keep you begging for more,
This love ain't unconditional,
I am an enigma in its very essence,
Even in my absence, you can feel the presence,
I can make you feel like top of the world,
And bring you down the next second,
Keep you guessing,
I can assure you, you haven't met anybody like me,
And if you have, it was me, more than likely,
It could take a lifetime to know me,
Still remain an untold story,
Sorry for all the mood swings, it wasn't me,
Its the two colors on my mood ring,
Sorry for all the drama that I do bring,
Of all the things I hate, there are just two things,
The people who can't do what they say,
And the people who can't do what they say,
I get mad at things you would least expect,
And still I never lost your respect,
I am like the calm before the storm and after it,
Leave you destructed and you never asked for it,
Then come back to count the casualties,
Like it wasn't my fault, actually,
I am quite like the silent thunder,
Thrill you if you dare to wander,
There are 2 sides of each coin,
The sides keeps changing,
My closet needs re arranging
I am full of paradoxes,
But like the wind you can't box me,
I don't like the way things must be,
I never said it would be easy to love me*

Butterflies

2012-01-22T23:13:00.002+05:30

I get lonelier each time,
You go away,
If I had one wish,
I wouldn't let you go away,
But things are getting complicated,
I hope I could find a way,
Today I couldn't talk much,
We can't always have our way,
I wish I could have known your,
Lot sooner than I have,
But then I feel I have known,
you since ever, even though I haven't ,
And feel the butterflies,
May be coz its spring,
Or is it,
That we have a thing,
Not treat you
Like a fling,
Coz if it was
I wouldn't feel special,
And we are just friends,
So what is it that has got me to think*

Manifest

2012-01-22T23:12:00.005+05:30

So tell me
what the meaning of struggle
I said its beautiful
now it seems ugly
I thought I walked the mountains
thinking otherside
would be lovely
I thought I won
disappointment greeted
sore losers then
why do I hold this pen
like a grudge
swam seven seas
to get away
from the rage of the river
brilliant
like circling moths
not knowing
the day is still to come
I thought I got
moksha
only to realize
I was praying all this
while to the wrong God
But I know
faith has nothing to do
with religion
I am trying to split
the seas
no dreams
blinding my stares
just gaze at the four walls
looking for
visions from the Lord

Flower Bed

2012-01-22T23:12:00.002+05:30

staring at the ceiling for hours
like I am fallin on the bed of flowers
with thorns,
my last wish,
may the flowers
be roses

Untitled

2012-01-22T23:11:00.005+05:30

_I wrote it down
just to remember
in case
you ever forget,
I wrote it on the ceiling
just so that
you can read it
before you go to sleep,
I thought
you slept with lights on
but I was wrong.... contd_

Fade

2012-01-22T23:11:00.002+05:30

I wish I could put down,
In words
What I feel,
But words are just words
They can never express what I feel,
And feelings change,
Just memories remain,
And overtime,
Memories fade
like the dark circles
under my eyes...

Worth

2012-01-22T23:10:00.004+05:30

the itch was so bad
that I scratched till it bled,
I felt so much pain,
that I cut till it was dead,
and your love was so good,
I loved till it hurt,
And life is short,
what's the measure of its worth?

Peak

2012-01-22T23:10:00.002+05:30

So many things to do,
So little time,
24 hours ain't enough,
The wish to be the first,
I want to end my thirst,
at a fountain,
I want to climb the mountain,
which has no peak,
And I came so far
Just on belief...

Dreamshatterer

2012-01-22T23:09:00.006+05:30

If it wasn’t for this pen,
My whole present would be spent,
With lost souls,
Finding peace with consoles,
Would I be able to bear the onslaught,
Only God knows,
But all I muster is false hope,
Coz my audience lesser than dog shows,
No skull or crossed bones,
Only dive deeper than the bottom of the glass,
My bottle has been smashed,
After few shots it all makes sense,
Don’t bother with the blend,
Keep pace with the bleeding pen,
My only weeping friend,
the feelings won’t matter,
coz the hope gets lost, and the dream shatter*

Untitled(suggest title)

2012-01-22T23:09:00.002+05:30

You can only dream of
places I have been
Mentally,
All the things
I did for my family,
All they did,
instead of helping me,
Is trying to
put sense in me,
When I come to a point
Where I am
about to plead insanity,
A room of variances,
Out of body experiences,
Mental orgasms,
Heart full of spasms,
The ones
my past couldn’t fathom,
This ain’t a struggler’s anthem,
But I can’t help but,
Generalize,
And I can’t undermine,
That I felt heaven,
At least on my fingertips,
I found hope,
At the brink of disbelief,
Don’t blame the postman,
If you put the wrong address,
Life is a bitch,
depending on how you dress her,
Let the broken glass,
Mess up the dresser,
Rosewood, Redwood, any wood,
If I could I would,
The more I clench my fists,
the more sand I loose,
But I choose not to,
just my screws,
My life is like a travelogue,
No just ticket needed just travel along,
Like a broken pen and a moleskin,
A DSLR and an eye to watch closely,
No backpacker,
Just a bad actor,
Modern day rye catcher,
Self financer ,
A mere puppet on the string,
That life hangs by,
finding questions to some bad answers,
Putting up with bad promise makers,
When a promise may curse,
Life is just a makeshift,
Life is what you make it,
Or make of it*

Only Me

2012-01-22T23:08:00.001+05:30

In the life we live
each passing wind
scars the heart
to give it the shape it takes
some scars are hard to heal,
some scars you don't want to heal,
some feelings are hard to kill
a mark so precise,
you know the touch,
a breath so close,
no need to rush,
a petal to pick,
only I could love u so much.

Piece of Mind 2012

2012-01-13T06:28:00.000+05:30

Through emotions that brim,
My devotion is deep,
For every instance that I sleep,
Through,
I am glad we made it through,
Few shattered cell phones,
No broken glasses known,
Few broken dreams I am trying to collect,
Watching golden sunsets,
Not yet,
But I have no regrets,
I traded pain, for highs and lows,
Till the time froze,
This is the life I chose,
Through poetry and prose,
You, my only outlet,
From the outset,
To vent my frustrations,
My guide through strange nations,
And my vague patience,
My stronghold through age races,
Can't escape when my face makes it,
Appear so clear,
My only near and dear,
When I least made sense,
Sorry, When I saw past your every defense,
And my every pretence,

Glass with wine and incense,
Travels with no nonsense,
All this traded for a today,
For which I have nothing to say,
But a better tomorrow,
Not a promise that is hollow,
Don't worry, In time,
I will make your miseries mine,
Beyond a diamond ring,
And everything,
That has a place and time,
No words to define,
God sent, Something so divine,
To share my life,
Empower you with the title of wife,
Beginning to renew,
I understand your point of view,
All the things we have been through,
Ineffable tears that ran through,
The valleys of disappointments
Memories and moments,
And all this,
Against my parents wish*

Untitled

2011-02-03T07:11:00.002+05:30

Revolution will not be televised,

The same way television will not be revolutionized,

Thats why I use this pen,

The revolution in my hand,

A generation cannot be defined,

What is a definition of a generation?

Where do we draw the line?

I am trying to push the line,

Mold it into words,

Never get over this crush

Unlike a high school infatuation,

Look again, in fact what you are facing,

Deeper than my dead skin,

My heart racing,

Genuinely, I am in love,

All my love in genuine plus all of the above*

Untitled

2011-02-03T07:00:00.001+05:30

If it wasn't for this pen,

My whole present would be spent,

With lost souls,

Finding peace with consoles,

Would I be able to bear the onslaught,

Only God knows,

But all I muster is false hope,

Coz my audience lesser than dog shows,

No skull or crossed bones,

Only dive deeper than the bottom of the glass,

My bottle has been smashed,

After few shots it all makes sense,

Don't bother with the blend,

Keep pace with the bleeding pen,

My only weeping friend,

the feelings won't matter,

coz the hope gets lost, and the dream shatter*

unbreakable

2010-07-26T08:03:00.002+05:30

beyond the three words,
or any word could describe,
no time or space can decide,

beyond the cliches
of love poems,
or the ring which
I can take off every time I shower,
Or calls I wait for
every hour,

beyond the loyalty,
if words could deceive,
not conditional,
but a joy to receive,

no wasting time,
no foreplay of sacrifice of mortal flowers,
no wall of promises,
that towers,

over all that makes sense,
no I am not talking
about no strings attached,
no messages
tracked,

no pressure of trying
to match the party wear,
no matter where I go,
you are always partly there,

a voice
so unmistakable,
share a bond
so unbreakable*

These Times

2008-06-03T23:37:00.003+05:30

All these times we spend together,
Seems we were meant to be together,
All these beautiful moments,
I wish I could hold on to them,
But I let them go,
Knowing there are better ones to come,
All the smiles and frowns,
All this tickling and fiddling,
These moments more precious than gold,
We will remember when we get old,
Warmth of your touch,
Gleam in your eyes,
All the lies I have told,
So that I can get to see you,
My moment of clarity when I really need you,
I wish I could have found you sooner,
But no regrets,
Coz just to know I have you,
I know I m not lucky, I m blessed,
And I wonder will you stay the same
Through rain and clouds,
Whether I am humble or proud,
I know I act weird at times,
Not clear in mind,
But no matter what may come,
I will forever be there for you,
Love you and care for you,
You take me to places I have never been,
Or I have ever seen,
That place is like a sanctum to me,
And I want you to walk with me,
Talk with me,
Same way as these times*

More Than You Think You Are

2008-05-21T01:55:00.000+05:30

I knew it from the start,
It wasn’t gonna be easy,
But since my birth I have been following my heart,
May be I was born to struggle,
Been there and still doing it,
All the battles I survived,
Somebody was there to ruin it,
But I need them to put me down,
The failures only made me stronger,

I stay focused, don’t let my thoughts wander,
God’s favorites have a hard time,
Now when I look back at all the years past,
The purpose of all this struggle,
I find answers to all the questions I asked,
You reap what you sow,
But you also gotta nurture and water,
Keep doing your thing,
All the small talk shouldn’t really bother,
I know there will be times,
When you will doubt yourself,
But hurdles teaches you things
you don’t know about yourself,
God has a weird sense of humor,
And you gotta be patient,
Give up your vices,
Give up time wasting,
There’s much to achieve,
So much that can be done,
All that you need is inside you,
Where else can you get inspiration from,
The light at the end of the tunnel isn’t that far,
Coz you are,
More than you think you are*

The Fight Continues

2008-03-15T10:54:00.001+05:30

So many people around the world,
Waiting for a savior to descend,
Some one who can guide them,
Take away their miseries,
I wish it was me,
But each one of us,
Has been granted this power,
To rise above the person next to us,
We don't need a savior,
The power is within us,
For all the believers,

If we each play our part,
We can each have our Adidas,
If we each make a point,
To do whatever little we can,
I know we put our selves in their shoes,
We can find the impetus,
Way is there, all we need is the will,
We even have the intellect,
We don't even have to go there,
We have the internet,
This is an urge, This is my request,
This is my prayer,
For the hungry to the world,
I don't write without a cause,
But for me, this is more than a cause,
Just think if what if it was one of yours,
For you, this might be news,
But the fight against hunger continues.........

White Carpet

2008-03-15T10:05:00.000+05:30

So I wake up,
Feeling the chills,
Get on with the routine,
Doing my thing,
Then take a peek outside,
And I see the splendor,
Of God's Creation,
Its that time again,
No, its not the sun,
Blinding my eyes,
No, its not the greens,
That soothe my senses,

Its that time,
The birds fly south for,
Its that time,
The squirrels gather nuts year round for,
Its that time,
That makes Christmas so special,
I am delighted to see it again,
As if the Father is gonna descend,
And the earth is covered with
A White Carpet

Already Mine

2008-03-12T23:07:00.003+05:30

I thought I would send you love letters,

But the post seldom works good,

Thought I would say sweet things to you,

But words are only words,

Thought I would send you flowers,

But they dry,

Thought I would do nice things for you,

But you like to do things for me,

Shower you with gifts and diamonds,

But nothing is as good, as to give to you,

Take you to vacation on an island,

Just you and me, But I aint that rich yet,

Do everything for you,

But I don't need to impress you,

Because you are....

Stay There

2008-03-06T13:21:00.001+05:30

Let me stare into those eyes,
And let me get lost,
All the love I see in them,
Makes me wanna stay there*

Walk With Me

2008-03-06T13:15:00.003+05:30

Walk with me,
Talk to me,
So that I may know,

I m so used to walking alone,
All this seems surreal,
So just hold my hand,
So that I may know,
That you are still here,

Take me to the other side,
Where its just you and me,

Its me against the world,
But with you
I feel invincible,
My feelings are true,
Even though its just words that I scribble,

No one can even come close,
Compared to what you are to me,

This life is hard,
It gets dark sometimes,
If I ever lose hope,
Be my guiding light,
I don't need anybody else,
I just want you,
To walk with me*

Piece of Mind

2008-01-25T12:34:00.000+05:30

There's so much to say
and you are just not there,
Yes, nobody made me feel
the way you do,

I can still smell you
as if you were never gone,
with you not here,
can't really say I m fine,
your touch lingers
your skin smooth like wine,

Just sit here,
And let me stare,
Don't say nothing,
for once, let the time stop,
Coz we never seem to talk enough
so let the silence speak,
or is it that you have,
left me speechless again,

Only time I find peace,
and I long for your kiss,
Who else makes you feel
the way I do,
who understands you
the way I do,
Only if I can make you
understand what you mean to me,
when you pamper me like a child
I wish I could stay more than a while,
just stare in my eyes
you will see it
if they can't tell you all

my unknown strength,
my sun in the rain,
my angel in disguise,
my dream invader,

why am I even trying to waste words?
I m just trying to give you
A piece of my mind*

I Gave You Power

2007-10-27T11:50:00.000+05:30

I m mightier than sword,
If my owner uses me right,
I can kill without a stab,
I can start a war,
Stop a war and a lot more,
I give light to all those who lost cause,
For all those who got something to say, But can't say it,
I help them make it,
I don't discriminate, by color, race or religion,
I help them write, I give them a vision,
I got you your first job,made your parents proud,
I help move crowds.

I m a workaholic,
I like to keep spitting ink, without a pause,
I m a writer's weapon of choice,
I m the silent voice,
If you use me right, I can make your girlfriend moist,

I m your Sunday solitude,
And Monday news,
I m the only thing you might own,
When you die broke,
I can help your last words,
In the form of a suicide note,
Or clog myself at your father's last breath,
Make your inheritance go to charity,
So make sure you use me right and not play with me,

I ejaculate, leave the pages dirty,
Leave stains hard to wash away,
For my owners who lost their way,
And don't know how to use me,
Call me moody, I can make your shirt pockets get noticed,
So I just pray, my next owner be a true writer,
Who has his mind aligned to me, and wouldn't lose focus,
I hope one day I will help him write an opus,

I can make you nostalgic, give you memories,
Help you remember things,
You can use to sketch,
If my cousin's lid breaks,
I don't have the same shades he has,
But it depends on the user's skill,
And if I ever run out you can refill,

My golden age has passed,
But I still got it,
I fight against 100 keys,
But then again I got it locked,
And the keys on the keyboard,
Are like Nas,
What would you be without me?
I gave you power*

Powers That Be

2007-10-26T21:02:00.000+05:30

power is in poetry, paper n people.
by paper i mean money,
but many of them write so worthless,
and they waste it,
then they say recycle, save trees,
and they are least concerned
about what i m tryin to say here,
they wanna know what my name means.

by poetry i mean words,
spoken n written,
but damn sure not bitten,
turn faces crimson,
spreading wisdom,
now combine that with beats
thats what i call built to kill,
but u can find words n then you say you got skills,
so i m a hypocrite, like everyone else,
and thats what everybody tells,

tell me whats the difference between people n crowd,
i tell you, both are stupid,
coz a person can think but not the mob
if you had seen the riots I have, you would agree,

then by my people i mean,
my people, my countrymen
who only know a little,
may God bless us all equal,

with great power comes great responsibility,
i don't need to be stung by an 8 legged,
to understand that,
so i write by the powers that be,
i use it to empower
the powerless*

Ineffable (Painkiller Part 2)

2007-10-17T12:48:00.000+05:30

Her soft skin on mine,
with all this passion combined
my fingers through her hair,
the moment passes and I wish I was there,
I can still feel her lips on mine,
the feeling so divine,
her flaming lips leave me burnt,
she replaced all that hurt,
its even hard to find words.

When I fall asleep,
And when I wake up, she's there next to me,
When she's close enough, I can smell her,
Close enough, I can tell her,
What she means to me,
I just want her to be next to me,

I could tell all this
face to face,
But I wrote it down,
In case she ever forgets,
But then again words are only words
How can they ever compare
To what I feel inside,

No prescription needed,
I have found my painkiller for life*

Little too late

2007-10-13T12:52:00.000+05:30

What am i supposed to say now
coz back then i was
overwhelmed by words
i would have said it all,
had so much to say
but i couldn't really find you,
you made me feel like nobody else has,
but now if i say its de ja vu
then I lie,

now that i have found you,
its a little too late,
coz somebody else has already found you,
if i could turn back time
and its that time again,
me, reckless n stupid,
you, young n beautiful as ever,
but i guess its little too late,

All this while you were in my thoughts,
And i looked for you all over,
Now that i have found you,
You are more beautiful than before,
But all the more away,
its kinda bitter sweet
but more bitter than sweet,
Now you find the meaning
If I meet i will tell you what you mean to me
But I guess, Now its a little too late*

Pain Killer( Feels like Love)

2007-09-07T22:35:00.001+05:30

She smells like flower,
Tastes like honey,
Her touch is magic,
Now finally the days are sunny,
She kisses me softly,
Holds me gently,
I can't get enough of her,
And I m like God help me,
I can't stop kissing her,
Her lips so tempting,

We talk so much but its not enough,
And I want her so bad
the wait is worth it,
And when she leaves I feel so sad,
then I hate waiting
Makes me forget all the pain,
Gives me reason to live,
Makes me wanna change,
For the better,
Knowing at least someone cares,
When I m with her the time flies,
Her nails through my hair,
Her breath clashing mine,
Feels what my eyes want to say,
All this when,
Next to her I lay,
Doesn't let me drink enough,
But she doesn't know
I m already high from her sugar kisses,
How can I let her go?
Her touch is addictive,
Now I know theres mercy above,
I don't know what you call this
But it feels like love*

Bad Credit

2007-09-05T14:18:00.001+05:30

mind state is relative
and the anger is gravity,
i aint even tryin to give a fuck,
where i m from
u dont stand and stare,
u find the walls red,
find souls dead,
get lost in a zone,
tryin to find way away from home
make u not forget my name,
i m in love with this pain
can i see you again?
all the time spend waiting in vain
i think i m gonna die today
everyone who hurt me is gonna pay*

Beyond the relations that can be named

2007-09-04T12:19:00.000+05:30

I don't know what is it about you,
I ain't your lover,
Nor am i trying to be one,
But don't blame me
if i become,

No its not your eyes.
that i m crazy bout,
are we friends?
something i really doubt,
coz you never ever call
As if i expect
I think sometimes you are unfair,
But all due respect
I can't say there's something
about you i really like,
but when i talk to you
it really feels nice.

No i ain't rich,
But if u ever need something just ask,
I do wanna ask you something
don't forget me so fast,
But above all , all i want from you,
is for you to be happy always,
I don't care what you do, what you do.

I wanna see you everyday,
But I know somethings just can't happen,
just so that you know,
I think of you every second.

I thought I would buy you flowers,
But they would dry,
So I wrote down these words,
Coz they wouldn't lie.

I hope you get everything you want,
enjoy, have fun, stay the same,
But what I share with u is,
Beyond the relations that can be named*

You, Not Someone like you

2007-09-04T12:18:00.001+05:30

No, I ain't saying
I haven't met someone like you,
Its just that
I haven't met someone like you,
Words are lost,
And I ain't even tryin,
Its like theres a string
we are connected by,
An unbroken chord,
An unspoken bond,
I don't even talk so much,
and you still get the message,
Now what you call this,
I don't even wanna go there,
OK, So I lied,
I m lost in your thoughts,
And I don't even wanna come back,
keep me grounded,
If I ever fall,

I don't even do drugs,
And I feel addicted,
Its like all the pain shifted,
I have been so alone,
I think I get carried away,
But then again,
I know if one is worth wasting my time,

You call and I ain't got
Nothing to say,
As if I don't know
What to say
All I know
I wanna be with
You, not someone like you*

Peace of Shit Part 2

2007-08-15T14:00:00.000+05:30

You are following the legacy of bastards
characterized by disobeying masters,
killing impostors,
wearing cloak of monsters,
rather coming off obnoxious
u cachinate in laughter,
waiting for life after,
soldiers die martyrs,
the thoughts make u die faster
Achtung Baby!!!! or should I say Be cautious
life is like jigsaw everybody wants a piece of it,
But it ain't nothing but a peace of shit*

Scribble Hard

2007-08-10T22:18:00.000+05:30

Rise deeper,
up to the Brim,

Calm waters run shallow,
or so I say
I may be wrong,
Put your mind to it,

I m just tryna calculate
if my pen's aligned to it

the moment is bout to pass,
I just broke the time barrier
the words will last*

Abide

2007-08-06T23:34:00.000+05:30

They say good things don't last long,
So I guess they were right,
But I don't believe in all this,
And like you said everything happens for a reason
So there has to be a reason,
Why we had to meet for such a short time,
And why I decided to call you before I left.
I was like a dream just started and the alarm rang,

So can you tell me why does my heart feel so bad,
Why do I feel so sad?
When I left and I barely know you,
Why did I not sleep so well last night?
and was lost somewhere all day, today.

I will remember you always,
And what you said.
I don't believe in love at first sight
But then again I don't even know what love is.

I hate goodbyes,
Yet I m glad I called,
I wished I could have stolen a kiss
Before I would miss you like crazy forever,
But then again, nothing is forever
So I decide I would wait till we meet again*

Dumb

2007-07-12T22:56:00.001+05:30

Actions speak louder than words
But me I was born dumb*

Fly

2007-06-21T12:05:00.000+05:30

Fly
i saw a bird with broken wings
fly through the cracked sky,
i flap my one wing
and get ready to fly,
but i fear to soar and be hit by
an astray plane and die today,
atleast i tried
but why? you say

my skin hates my bones,
my brain hates my heart,
it wants my heart to be pulled apart,
but i follow my heart,
coz I was told so by the Father,
Life is getting harder,
the skies r getting darker,
I m ready for whats after,
So I wouldn't lie,
Lord give me wings to fly*

Reprise

2007-06-17T11:40:00.000+05:30

picture says a thousand words,
but the scripture is left unread,
you want for Him to come,
but you can't find a reason why He bled*

Tearz of the Sun

2007-06-17T11:38:00.000+05:30

I m like retarded kid
throwing ice cubes at the sun,
thinking it would melt
and the rain would come,
but i ain't ignorant
as to from where it rains,
despite all the struggle
i m willing to make a change,
i m tryna move moutains
without any help,
my place is the sky shall be reserved,
Just to His left,
words are meager,
like the faith is in the eye of the beholder,
hold this pen tight,
death isn't in the eyez of the heat holder,
loosen up my tie, take off the shirt,
let the sun warm my cold shoulder*

Calibres of an educated fool

2007-06-17T11:22:00.000+05:30

Yes I remember I was in school,
teachers tryna make me learn
I barely understand,
what was the moral of the story
they would ask?
I wouldn't listen coz i was sitting last,
its more than a chapter of my past,

I always would stand out in the crowd,
not bcoz i was proud,
I could never relate to what my peers thought,
or what my teachers taught
teachers said i would amount to nothing,
but i guess i did learn something,
otherwise i wouldn't be writing this,
may be subconsciously,
coz consciously i didn't make an effort,
but now does it really matter

my parents put me through every teenagers nightmare,
cant really say i liked that,
but anyways it made me the person i m,

NO i ain't rich as i would like,
but there's way to go and anything is possible,
coz i m still breathing,
i ain't a quitter and I ain't leaving,
And I m a man and alone I stand,
i ain't got no ice on my arms,
no keys on my palm,
But i guess its all good
Coz i never let my studies
interfere with my education*

Taken

2007-06-04T21:29:00.001+05:30

Give you everything you ever wanted,
Make you feel like you are on top of the world,
would be easy considering your feather weight curls,
But you are just a girl,
On second thought,
Not just an average girl,
that I see everyday,

You make me wanna love you in every way,
Wouldn't buy you flowers, coz they wither away,
I would rather take you to garden every day,

Love you for who you are,
Not just the way you dress,
I ain't saying all this to impress,

But pity, Coz all this
When you are already taken*

Leap of Faith

2007-05-26T21:39:00.000+05:30

I know I ain't nobody,
to tell you what you do,
But this Yes I tell you
my dear friend,
Just so that you know,
And you won't get hurt
I ain't telling you
Not to fall in love,
Just don't let the love
hold the reins,
I know what you might think,
What do I know about love?
But if I could show my broken heart,
You wouldn't say the same,

Love somebody,
but not more than yourself,
I have been there and done that,
And done with it,
Believe me if you could,
those seconds of heaven
are nothing,
compared to the pain,
that a broken heart brings you,
I ain't saying all men are alike,
and for sure I know all women either,

Dream I say,
But don't make them so hard,
then again its a matter of belief,
Coming from a dare devil like me
I know it sounds absurd,
Who am I tell you,
Not to take,
This leap of faith*

Write of Way

2007-05-25T20:02:00.000+05:30

Pen is stronger than the knife,
I read that in the Book of Life,
So I write so deep,
that I bleed,

So many souls this art resurrected,
Through words we feel connected,
We broke the barriers of language and race,
All the scars and the damage replaced,

An outlet, to get it out,
An outset, to set it out,
A cup of wisdom, take a sip, pass it around,
If it wasn't for these words, Incognito would never be found,
If it wasn't for these words, I wouldn't be so proud,
But then again I wouldn't touch the ground,

So many of us would have died unnoticed,
So many of us would have cried feeling hopeless,
And I m thinking, What if,
These words I couldn't vomit,
the cancer had flourished,
My soul malnourished,

But I let my knife cut the green,
My pen praise Him,
For the talent He has granted,
Coz the Write of way
isn't that far left*

Re- Kindle

2007-05-22T09:21:00.001+05:30

Bible has words that Christ wrote,
Words are dope,
Inspires me when I m broke,
Giving wings to my hope,
Never learn to jump rope,
I just learnt to be true
every time I spoke,
Get reaction outta u like "OH NO"
Call me Loco,
Pass the torch When I m Dodo*

Things Happen to those who weight

2007-05-22T09:20:00.000+05:30

Tearz make my eyez warm,
and my vision blurry,
makes your lips salty,
when you kiss me,
I ain't goin no where,
but you know what my wish be,
Will you leave me like rain leaves
the soil wet,
Coz then comes the wait,
something we all hate*

Like a Soulja

2007-05-14T23:22:00.000+05:30

Like a Soulja I fight,
for the war I m in,
Days pass and winds blow,
hurdles come and hurdles go,
everyone of them surely I know,
Its like a swing to and fro,
Pillows wet, Eyez not shallow,
Can't tell this to my mom though,
Like a Soulja I fight for the war I m in,
I m back where I belong that I dream,
Few faces turn, all of them run,
I stand still, came undone,
Fastforward now, time to shun,
Every morning Chapters learnt,
Bleeding dry like cactus burnt,
Back in the dayz had some fun,
Soulja'z Life all in one,
War ,till I m back, I have just begun

One

2007-05-08T21:47:00.001+05:30

Fortune favors the brave,
but my Saviour has been named,
King of the Kings,
the One residing in the sky,
Gives me reason to die,
my vision is high,
But you ask me why,
I say Why not?
And you say O My God!!!
I gotta rinse myself with my blood,
In order to be forgiven
Not like all but,
This mortal wants to make it even,
The Good die young,
Its true, you know where I m from,
I have been chosen,
Yes, I m the one*

Errors in mis-judgment

2007-05-07T20:57:00.000+05:30

For the truly awakened
don't need eyes to see,
for those truly alive
don't need air to breathe,
whats in the name,
let my errors in mis-judgment speak,
Let me lay 6 feet deep
if ever I get weak,
my words will inherit,
coz they say the world shall be for the meek*

Forsaken Oasis

2007-05-02T20:53:00.000+05:30

In the desert,
it quenches the thirsty,
something the lost
caravans wish for,
only source of water,
where the sun is merciless,
from far and wide,
the creatures gather,
the only hope
in the barren land,
such a promise for
lost souls,
but this one shall
be mistaken,
for a mirage
on the horizon,
it never got a chance
to give the life
it promised,
it never did,
Such is the life,
of a soul like mine,
a case of mistaken
identity
such is the fate of
a forsaken oasis*

Moment of Clarity

2007-05-02T20:43:00.000+05:30

Its amazing how
silence speaks aloud
when you are alone,
and then you find
that moment you waited for
all along,
and you fall on your knees,
coz all of the 3 are merciful,
the focus is found,
things turn around,
and everything is in your stride,
no more reason to hide,
There has to be God,
He can read your thought,
Watching me from somewhere,
and your every breath,
reminds you to do whats right,
the purpose gets clear,
you can even touch
its so damn near,
and you choose to live,
with a new belief,
the sun suddenly get brighter,
the light of the stars is all
you need at night,
you gotta be there
to know what its like,
you gotta experience
to find this moment of clarity*

A Place like this..(Passage to Zion)

2007-04-30T21:36:00.000+05:30

For all those tender at heart,
Who forgive at ease,
Who gives out smiles on lease,
Lend me a smile, I promise,
I will payback with interest,
For all those who are glad
to be blessed,
Pray for me to your God, whatever
the name be,
For those who see beyond
the color and the skin,
Ask my name and I will
take you to my home,
For those who take struggle in their stride,
and fight bravely,
Give me some of that too,
I will share it gladly,
For all those living young,
living like a child, still carefree,
Give me a moment, I can
runaway to the world of my own,
Where I know nobody other
than the people from my home,
Where the sky is blue as I like it,
and Sun warms my senses,
where the smiles of strangers
leaves my soul replenished,
Where the oceans seem empty
compared to the hearts of my people,
They will teach you how to live,
If I ever forget,
I told where I wanna go,
So now will you take me
to a place like this*

Do Knot Untie

2007-04-30T21:32:00.000+05:30

So much to do
so little time,
So much to say
so few words,
Or so I say
you can see my wrists
I feel your pain,
Close your eyes,
I can read your mind,
this puzzled breath,
we long to solve,
this ancient potion
we want to dissolve,
what is the purpose?
Did I fly 7 seas,
just to see my mother cry,
Or the joy on her face
when I see her again,

So many questions,
if someone could answer,
Will someone descend,
when the blue skies open?
Or will this hope like broken,
Is this the Pandora's Box
or a knot tied too tight*

You Liar!

2007-04-25T20:41:00.000+05:30

if ever the pain gets too much to bear
and for some reason I m not there
give me a call and I shall share,
I will let my back pack be covered by sand
carry your burden, walk hand in hand,
I only do for you what you do for me,
I m such a liar,
Everything I do for you is not enough,
and it doesn't mean much
you say I m a liar,
but time will prove,
you will be left speechless
with nothing to say!

Leave me alone

2007-04-23T01:17:00.000+05:30

The itch was so bad
I scratched till I bled,
I cut so deep,
the whole floor was red,
But still alone I stand,
Leave me alone is what I meant,
Skies are dark n gloomy,
But when I m holdin this many
calibres I m moody*

Only when I m alone

2007-04-23T01:15:00.000+05:30

Staring into nothing
my thoughts wander far and wide,
should I stay there or come back?
I can't decide
The rainbow seems pale
and there r only shades of black,
all this anger seems to be of no avail,
hold your breath make a wish for me,
I feel so lonely........

Nevermind

2007-04-09T22:41:00.000+05:30

You took me for granted,
You spilled my drink,
YOu didn't even spare time to think,
I knew this would end,
and you thought every broken heart could mend,
I wrote your name on my heart,
now just to forget you I leave it scared,
may be you thought you just wasted time,
I can't really say, I m fine
but then again,
nevermind*

Trangress

2007-03-25T11:23:00.000+05:30

I m dehydrated,
But you will hate it,
If I made it
I m drawing pictures at home,
When I m alone,
Trying to serenade,
Sipping Lemonade,
But it wasn't the venom, Wait!!!
that left the bitter taste in my mouth,
But you left as soon as you knew what I m about,
you went to Amazon and brought a few clouds,
It rained all day, you didn't even hear me murmur or shout,
World Wide Suicide couldn't bring us close enough,
I m the descendant of the Sun, I always had it rough,
But the righteous shall not be forsaken,
Coz I find inspiration in Him,
and this scripture is a known weapon*

Wrath

2007-03-19T08:35:00.000+05:30

Should I slit my wrist?
Flood the city or Should I paint this town red?
or should I color the barren walls
with my words of graffiti,
Or should I go back
start with my own city,
In the land of the Gods
its hard to find pity,

State of mind .......to be continued

2007-03-19T08:30:00.000+05:30

One word can make us all feel connected,
As if Christ resurrected,
How far should I go b4 I can't turn back
Should I just give it all up and run back,
Give me back my best years,
The "take in the chest" years,
I like my grass dry, no greener pastures,
Let me identify the bastards.........

Versus to be added

2007-03-15T10:47:00.000+05:30

Should I grab my crucifix tight in these dark ages,
Or should I blast them all, fill up these pages,
My anger rages on,
The page is torn,
There is a cyclone in my mind,
You might go there and find,
Demons on a leash,
Freedom of speech,
Women on a wish,
Crimson and sweet,
Wisdom of discreet,
Theres so much I want to do
But so little time,
My heart is already broken,
Why you tryna fiddle mine?
Leave me alone, Coz if I rebel,
You wouldn't like it,
Strip you all off your Nikes,
So called ryderz strap you on your bike seats,
I m supposed to be nice kid,
My last name ain't Shakur,
But me against the world
Now thats more like it*

take me in!

2007-03-15T10:43:00.000+05:30

I respire,
for you to conspire,
get higher,
only way to be flyer?
admire, the ways of the man
need to vest to take this gunfire,
aspire, for everything you wished for,
coz when you are gone they are not gonna miss y'all*

Pseudo Inferno

2007-03-13T21:47:00.000+05:30

If the night seems long,
and the road seems hard,
Just open your eyez and day shall begin,
Stop right there and start living,
the sky shall be blue,
When theres nothing left to prove,
Look at the performer when the crowd wouldn't move,
Wanted to write something long but its only a line you drew,
Look back at your life how you were grown,
What change have you made on your own,
just wasted oxygen coz it was free,
Gave your life away but it wasn't me,
you pushed me to the edge, and your hand slipped,
NOw I shouldn't be so disrespectful I should be tight lipped,
Now can I be responsible for what my mind did,
mind over matter, many friends scatter,
so many dreams shatter,
Now I m one step closer to nirvana,
I love it all, Just hate the manner*

Solicitude

2007-03-13T21:31:00.000+05:30

Wisdom is relative,
but do i have to do the imperative,
If God sends his angels,
Will we still be strangers?
Show me a star to meet somebody in a manger,
just going would be enough, No gifts needed,
I found bliss when I was defeated,
coz the demons on my shoulders were
meant to be greeted,
I cut their wings off, I found 'em seated,
I don't need to run away,
I stand and stare at the sun today*

Wishful Thinking

2007-02-27T22:43:00.000+05:30

I know I shouldn't see you each day,
but I can't help myself I have to see you each day,
all my paths lead to you,
who else would I talk to,
If it wasn't for you,
But its only time that I sacrifice,
Let me get lost in your eyez,
May be the only place I would find peace,
Give you everything you want is my wish,
But all good things come to an end,
No matter what happens just be a friend,
You will be there is what I m hoping,
but we share a bond that is not to be broken*

Labyrinth

2007-02-26T09:38:00.000+05:30

i m the labyrinth,
you can't battle me,
the most you can do is rattle me,
i m that wind that can't settle quick,
i got demons on my both shoulders,
my thoughts are like posters,
posters of focus,
y'all fail to notice,
coz these posters are in a dark alleys of the inner city,
only this mirror filthy,
it will take a genocide to kill me,
feel me*

The day that is today

2007-02-05T23:10:00.000+05:30

Today you can tell me what you want 2 say,
the moment that is now,
the moment that is proud,
tomorrow isn't a promise,
It will pass by and I wouldn't notice,
the day that is today,
i can't say tomorrow will be a new day,
nobody has seen the day that is to come,
live today, coz it will not return,
today will help us to become,
today will hold us strong, tomorrow will weaker,
today is the confidant, tomorrow is indifferent,
can't say see you tomorrow coz if i pass away,
you will say i was with him just yesterday,
can i say love you again,
coz tomorrow i might not feel the same,
can i spit out my deepest desire,
i don't know what the day to come will require,
the day that is today,
the moment that is now,
let me live my life today

Ride the Rocket

2007-01-31T22:22:00.000+05:30

Life is like riding the subway,
first you wait for the train to come,
coz you just missed one,
the phone doesn't work,
and worst still the strangers surround you,
But then you notice a beautiful face,
And you are thankful for God's grace,
And that you got late,
You come out of the tunnel,
its raining outside,
You praise the Lord,
Coz you don't have to walk outside,
But then comes the stop,
And you wonder if this is the stop
you are supposed to get off,
the darkness welcomes you,
And you hope, light at the end of the tunnel
awaits you,
frowns n the smiles force you to stare,
But do you really care?
just then you try to read the map,
trying to figure out if you are on the right track,
music gives you company,
when theres nothing to do,
but then comes the time to change,
Here comes, Yonge and Bloor*

Rising

2007-01-25T23:06:00.000+05:30

Sky's fold,
I die cold,
You take away everything I strive for,
my dreams are like a leaf in a river,
its banks are rough, and I stare like beaver,
Waters ain't receding let me take a breather,
But I was born to be a winner,
I find inspiration in all the failure,
its 1492 and I am a sailor,
I earn more than the paper,
All the nights when I was on my knees ain't gonna vapour,
I don't even need to answer the question
who's my saviour?*

Tears suffice

2007-01-25T22:47:00.000+05:30

When your eyez
find it hard to sleep,
I m drowning in this
sea so deep,
And you know I want
to change,
But you can't even
recall my name,
As it turns out
it wasn't a dream,
Sea water runneth
over the brim,
my cold stares
are justified,
If I say I like this
I lied,
But I ain't ashamed
to say I cried,
Nobody mourned
when my smile died,
Let me go
to the other side,
Let my feet
touch the summer tide,
I m stronger
than you think,
I know it will be
hard to breathe,
When I am
at this altitude,
But you learn whatever
little oxygen is there can be used,
Let me
reach higher,
I, myself
be my desire*

Something i felt was worth posting

2007-01-22T00:17:00.000+05:30

I have found paradox that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt only more love- Mother Teresa

Screams of Tranquility

2007-01-09T02:28:00.000+05:30

Let me hold u,
Melt in my arms,
Let the rain of your pain,
soak in my soil,
for the tug of emotions that we embroil,
its more like imbroglio,
But me,I m Incognito,
So I do things not so known even by me,
But your love it shines brightly*

My Anger's Requiem

2007-01-07T23:23:00.000+05:30

Sometimes I just wanna cut my wrists
to see how much it bleeds,
how much blood a dying soul needs,
save a morsel everytime i eat,
so that i can save a hungry soul on the street,
I wanna make devil bite the dust,
coz i have got the number on the beast,
I wanna call God everytime He leaves,
me stranded in the night,
find words to talk to the demons
that never see the light,
and i wonder if hadn't conquered these demons
what would my life be like,
what if this mirror wasn't a monster
and i wouldnt leave these walls red,
but b4 that i gotta comfort all my people
who can't walk str8,
Like i said fake love, all hate,
try me and i shall demonstrate,
my mindstate is not improving,
and i shall murder everything moving,
i m on the edge so don't push me
I will snap, Its a choice so just choose it

Monster

2007-01-05T23:59:00.000+05:30

paid dues,
make moves,
praying to Jesus,(read Hesus)
sippin on grey goose,
i hope i can join my people,
who lay loose,
loco 4 life, says who
can anybody fill my grey shoes?
nah, once in a day, the monster moves,
its take time to implement my monster views*

Unforgiven

2007-01-05T23:36:00.000+05:30

When I meet you,
I feel like I just met myself,
But you shall not be like me,
I shall guide you, so that when time comes you won't need my help,W
When I speak to you,
sometimes i feel like you are saying my thoughts,
I hope you will not turn out like me,
coz i had to work really hard for everything I sought,
There's a storm in my mind,
But I feel like u r the one with a mangled home,
I wish I could take away all that you weather,
Instead I decide to leave this stranger alone,

I tell you to focus on the things that matter,
Coz sooner or later these friends will scatter,
You will pour your heart out and at the end of the day,
you think all night if they would find 2 words to say,
so you ask how do i know this,
I tell you coz I have been through all you go through,
I m a loner I hope u r not,
hang on now can't abort,
Inspire yourself, coz this life is to be won,
Eventhough you shall forever remain unforgiven*

A Cappella

2006-12-31T23:05:00.000+05:30

my past was hard,
so is my present,
but if whats written shall be,
than my child shall reap
i know hells deep,
but i came back,
eventhough i aint learnt to swim yet,
life is a big mess,
but i dont count my regrets,
i m just glad to be blessed,
coz a father reprimands the son
he loves the most, but i aint the one,
i m just trying to be myself till the day is done*

My land

2006-12-25T01:34:00.000+05:30

This is the place i learnt to walk,
What I m about to say is more than a thought,
I left, But its more than a sense of price it has brought,
Years of struggle and with what patience it was fought,
Can not be expressed so i aint even gonna try,
God's Country now thats bonafide,

Where the sun makes my eyes go blind,
Rainbow of emotions can not be confined,
Finds inspiration amongs the turmoil,
Clouds quence the thristy firm soil,
And also heals the empty souls,
Everyday is an epic, thats barely told,
where patience runs miles without a gold,
Heroes are forgotten, A movie is needed to rekindle his relevance,
He probably was heaven sent,
The smoke chokes and I breathe it all in,
Coz a billion people are there to pick me up if ever i m falling,
Amen, Now break bread,
Far and wide the seeds spread,
May my body be one with this soil when i m dead,
I gave my body if nothing else else is what i said,
May the blessings be countless, and the country live long,
No matter where i go i know where i belong,
21 gun salute and look how tall i stand,
this is my land*

Nothing can stop you

2006-12-22T00:30:00.000+05:30

Don't let me stare into those eyez,
I might get lost b4 I realize,
There's so much to talk
But we never even sit, worse still never even walk,
We should go to a place that isn't so loud,
May be we should ride a cloud,
Melt our thoughts, fall down like snowflake,
This life i know we both hate,
Who else is there for me to talk to,
When you are with me, tell me who's there to stop you*

Painting myself in a corner

2006-12-22T00:22:00.000+05:30

My heart is crazy,
It wanders for love in all the wrong places,
But i guess everybody has to go through these phases,
And this love has too many damn faces,
my heart beat races,
it settles for once, when I m next to her,
My heart doesn't learn, it needs a tutor,
finds itself broken, very so often,
A broken hearts stays broken even if it is joined so proper,
But may be its a broken heart that I need to write so painful,
Just so that you know, carrying a broken heart ain't cool*

Acquittal

2006-12-04T21:27:00.000+05:30

" Thy shall not be afraid"
is what He said,
He knows me by my name,
Sacrifice my son for YOu, I shall not refrain,
I ain't Abraham,
But I know to wait after I say Amen,
Not on my knees, But I m humble,
I know the trouble,
The trouble You went through for me,
In this life I shall never be lonely,
1000 shall fall beside me,
something can touch me now thats less than likely,
I ain't washed in Holy water,
Then why am I so special, I m a mere mortal,
I have angels on both of my shoulders,
They fight for me, they are my guardian soilders,
Thank YOu, Today, I ma day older,
take this into account when You close my folder,
I carried a true heart,
since the day I began to breathe fast*

All you sought!

2006-12-04T21:24:00.000+05:30

Let me stare into your eyez.
Let me read your mind,
be surprised by what I find,
Few feelings can't be defined,
So much to say, so few words,
Your eyez cover all that hurts,
" Go away fly" open the cage for the birds,
All they need is to be spurred,
Take a bucket empty the pain,
Life I know is barely sane,
Let me bleed for you, You know I love the odds,
May be this is the reason I came from abroad,
Your mind is murky but not the thought,
I m weak now but I shall try to give you, all you sought*

Endure

2006-12-03T23:27:00.000+05:30

Paths of truth and struggle
are rough ridden,
I guess, what happened,
Or is about to happen is also written,
So all i have is faith,
I can't give up knowing its hard,
After the night comes the light,
That hope i carry in my heart,
Nothing lasts forever,
So all this strugglin is gonna end soon,
its only matter of time,
this air shall fill this vaccum,
my mother told me not to give up,
so everytime it gets hard i remember what she said,
thats enough reason for me to hold on,
I remember the verses i read,
I m ready for whatever
coz i have seen worse,
i came through and now i m stronger,
now all i have is the thirst,
to go further and success shall be in my grasp
I just wanna make my patience last*

In Vain

2006-12-03T23:23:00.000+05:30

I gave u my heart,
but u gave it back ripped apart,
my feelings die a quick death,
it struggles to hold on to the last breath,
but the will to survive brings it back to life,
to live alone, i know what its like,
so leave me alone, thats what i m asking,
open the window, for the air, i m gasping*

The day in a life of...

2006-11-16T22:21:00.000+05:30

I wake up, find things to do,
Got a few missed calls from don't know who
brush my teeth, find nothing to drink
I m running behind schedule b4 I could think,
time to begin another day,
gotta check the weather, hoping summer stays,
old socks see the laundry bag,
the towel sees my bare back,
i miss the bus now another 15 minutes,
shuffle a few songs for another nostalgic visit,
hop on a subway, and i realise i missed a meal,
so its back pocket to drill,
it has to be something cinnamon,
gotta pay my sweet tooth its dividend,
a bottle of iced tea to keep my throat wet,
a lot less modern but they call it the rocket,
carries me slowly to my stop,
and again theres a 5 minute walk,
boss is mad coz usually i m on time,
my coworkers ask me if i m fine,
i pretend to, i think they know it too,
few hours on and the back pain raises it ugly hood,
gotta eat now all i ate since morning was a donut,
i m getting mad knowing these customers r so dumb,
and hunger is making matters worse,
but before that time to scatter dust,
finally i get to eat, and 5 minutes to beat,
back to work againi m holding my back
few minutes of pain and i start ignoring that,
may be its sleep or working long hours the day before,
whats the reason i m not sure,
finally the rush is less,
time to relax,
i m getting calls but i can't talk,
5 to 7 missed calls thats what i got,
i gotta eat something b4 i leave,
i leave without nothing, you wouldnt believe,
12 is the time i get off, but i m there till 45,
we talk about girls, politics and what we like,
damn i missed my bus gotta run to catch the next one,
wait a moment i gotta put my words into action,
i hope to reach fast, or else i will have to walk home,
all this time music gives me company,
i listen to those songs which are worthy,
music keeps me moving, have u heard that saying?
it only stops at night when i m praying,
ask God a few things not for myself,
God give me heaven coz i m already in hell*

Traveller

2006-11-15T23:03:00.000+05:30

it only takes one word to hope
but moneywise i m broke,
just so that you know,
take my hand and i would go,
take me to the promised land,
we don't always get what we plan,
but still we do what we can,
i m a bigger person,
out of the 19" screen i only follow the little cursor,
can't lose sight of my goals,
no matter how old,
everybody has a story untold,
but with times i mould,
sometimes i can't stand,
And i just killed the sand bag*

Never had a friend like me

2006-11-15T22:51:00.001+05:30

So what do u do
when your best friend acts like,
everybody u had to go thru to be where u stand,
when only person that was on ur side,
stands on the other,
i can't explain the pain u suffer,
when their pain was yours,
and their struggle was yours,
you felt the every inch of pain they felt,
And you forgive coz they left,
you gave ur best,
just to see them happy,
the ones with whom
you were closer than family,
the times you remember so well,
now u only wanna forget,
so now i m ready whatever may come,
coz i took enough shots without a gun,
they never even tried to,
never cared, who i was,
or what i was made of,
all the sacrifices made,
that never saw the light,
more than a few times, my soul died,
but i resurrected it more than twice,
friends come and friends go,
but me, i stand alone,
choices are made,
you all made it clear,
so i m ready for death or insanity,
whatever i near,
they did what they had to do,
they never tried to understand me,
or be the friend we can be,
i came through everyttime they tried me,
i guess its not their fault to,
bcoz they never had a friend like me*

Shine

2006-11-15T22:45:00.000+05:30

Plants oscillate,
winds hug them like they relate,
sun shines bright,
colors fade in the night,
but for the morning, new colors to display,
many shall taste the nectar today,
bring an end to everybodys dismay,
i hope the whole 12 stays this way....

untitled

2006-11-15T22:40:00.000+05:30

If pain is love,
i own a house,
but if not i m a street dweller,
if love is blind
i m a bank teller...

Eternally Sleepless

2006-11-15T22:37:00.000+05:30

Breaking norms,
Taking forms,
may He warn,
I m making storms,
finding ways they inform,
peace is a word that needs reform,
all through the struggle its keeps me strong,
so tell me where does weak belong?
i blink an eye and the week is gone,
is this time travel or am i just faster,
my strings don't snap, so i praise the master,
my eyes go wet even in laughter,
let me live now, i shall sleep after*

Rage

2006-11-15T22:34:00.000+05:30

Rivers rage and the rapids flow,
Music calms me like a tragic soul,
thats something i got the fetish for,
let me get high let the magic soar,
it is, if it is atleast known,
now my soul is that little grown,
this is what keeps me grounded on cloud 9,
and i come back when escalators r fine,
almost nothing rhymes,
and i find inspiration in torrid times,
when my fake smile shows, all seems fine,
i discover a planet and say its mine*

Paint

2006-11-14T23:20:00.000+05:30

Patience is not a virtue
When the world is pushing me into a vaccum
who do i run to.
my future is doomed,
i slit my wrists and paint the room,
i should paint the sky instead,
it should be enough for the litres i had,
And with both hands i bled,
Yes, its true what you read,
Like winter miss mewhen my green leaves are dead